cherie86
mummy 2 a angel
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hi everyone im new to this but anyway here goes.. im 21yrs old nearly 22. on may 17 2008 i remember like it was yesterday. in the early hours of may 17th i couldnt sleep and had got another bleed. i called for that ambulance. by this time i was in alot of pain i didnt know what was going on. i was scared my partner was at work n didnt get off till 730 in the morning i had no sleep and was feeling very stressed.the ambulance got to my house at about 2am. they didnt seen to be all that worried about anything. oncei got to the hospital they placed me into the maturnity unit. i was very scared by this time as no one would tell me what was going on. the nurse came in and was monitoring my babys heart beat. she said it was very strong and sounded healthy. she also pointed out that i was having contraction. i has started to panic by this stage but they told me they would keep me in till the morning so the doctor could have a look at me. well the pains never went away all morning. at 9am the doctor came in and did a internall check and tole me that everything was ok and that they would keep me till the pains stoped. teh time was just draging on still thinking that thins where juts not right. at about 1130am i felt a pop it was a familiar pop thaat i knew exactly what it was. i called for the nurses n one came in and said to me to stop stressing that i needed to calm down that nothing was wrong n just walked out of the room. at about 1150am i thought i had wet myself so i ran to the toilet only to pull my pants down to be covered in blood. i sat down n within seconds my baby boy arrived. as i held him knowing there was nothing i could do to help him, i called the bells to get help but no one came. i kept calling but no one came. finally 20 min later a family member of the lady that was in the same room as me when to get the nurses. i had to sit ther holding my son and watch him slip away from me. by the time the nurses had got to me my baby boy had passed away. he was to young to be able to breath. i never heara a cry from him i just felt him move in my hands. his time of death was placed at 1215pm. the nurses wrapped him up as though he was nothing and mad me walk back to my bed with him still attached by his cord. i was all alone with no family there to help me thought it. i told my partner to go home for some sleep as he has just done night shift n we got told everything was ok..... Oscar William was born into this world only to be taken from it shortly after. he was 18cm long and 140 grams. my little boy will always be in my heart and i miss him dearly.. we has oscars funeral 3days later. the world is so crule
I cant believe how ignorant they were to you.
