miss_novotny
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Hi ladies,
first time posting back here in a long while.
I need some help... in late March I had a feeling that I was pregnant and DH and I were happy about that. Even though all the at home pee tests I took were BFN's and I didnt get one BFP, but I knew something wasn't right. I did one and I got a tiny faint line (perhaps a small fat positive) and that settled it. I did everything I could in order to keep it ( I've got PCOS)
But I'll get to the point. 3 days after (I made it about the 25th of March) I went to the toilet and sat there for a while. I had some bleeding for a day or so and thought nothing of it as it didnt get heavier. So i was sitting there doing no2's then I felt something odd come out of my bottom.. I was too upset and horrified to look in the toilet but I'm guessing this was the miscarriage that I dreaded.... I remember getting off the toilet and trying to just 'act normal' but inside I was hurt and sad.
This is where I'm starting to struggle to comprehend.. seeing as it was very early and I was only about 2 weeks, does it count as a miscarriage or a chemical pregnancy? I know what I felt those weeks, and I know that something wasnt right and I knew that I was pregnant. I haven't told my doctor all these months and I'm too scared to incase she dismisses it as a chemical. I know people say that no matter when you lost your baby or miscarried it still counts as a life and it still counts as a baby. I still count it as the baby girl ( we didnt know for sure but we hoped it was) I lost and coming up on the 25th of November (roughly) would have been when she/he would have been born and it's touching a nerve. I don't want to bring it up with DH as he has enough to worry about at the moment. He think i've forgotten about it, but in reality I haven't, and I still ponder thoughts like "oh only a month more to go"
What can I do to come to terms with this and give myself closure?
ps. Incase anyone was wondering if we did have a girl the name we had picked was Louella Cassandra
first time posting back here in a long while.
I need some help... in late March I had a feeling that I was pregnant and DH and I were happy about that. Even though all the at home pee tests I took were BFN's and I didnt get one BFP, but I knew something wasn't right. I did one and I got a tiny faint line (perhaps a small fat positive) and that settled it. I did everything I could in order to keep it ( I've got PCOS)
But I'll get to the point. 3 days after (I made it about the 25th of March) I went to the toilet and sat there for a while. I had some bleeding for a day or so and thought nothing of it as it didnt get heavier. So i was sitting there doing no2's then I felt something odd come out of my bottom.. I was too upset and horrified to look in the toilet but I'm guessing this was the miscarriage that I dreaded.... I remember getting off the toilet and trying to just 'act normal' but inside I was hurt and sad.
This is where I'm starting to struggle to comprehend.. seeing as it was very early and I was only about 2 weeks, does it count as a miscarriage or a chemical pregnancy? I know what I felt those weeks, and I know that something wasnt right and I knew that I was pregnant. I haven't told my doctor all these months and I'm too scared to incase she dismisses it as a chemical. I know people say that no matter when you lost your baby or miscarried it still counts as a life and it still counts as a baby. I still count it as the baby girl ( we didnt know for sure but we hoped it was) I lost and coming up on the 25th of November (roughly) would have been when she/he would have been born and it's touching a nerve. I don't want to bring it up with DH as he has enough to worry about at the moment. He think i've forgotten about it, but in reality I haven't, and I still ponder thoughts like "oh only a month more to go"
What can I do to come to terms with this and give myself closure?
ps. Incase anyone was wondering if we did have a girl the name we had picked was Louella Cassandra