need some reassurance please

[krwh]

hello ladies, i need a bit of reassurance please that im not going crazy here....and i hope this is the right forum to put this in, as well. i took a pregnancy test a couple of days days ago and it looked like it was a faint positive...at this point, if its correct, i would be about six weeks. i feel really anxious though because i have had two miscarriages in the last year and a half after having my son (now 16 months old) and im absolutely terrified of having another miscarriage. for the record, they were both unplanned. one happened shortly after i had had my son (an oops moment...my period was really, really late and by the time i figured out what was going on and had had a positive test, the mc was already happening ) and the other one, which was the most recent one, happened while i was on birth control. the first one i didnt realize what had had happened until i had a miscarriage but the second one i became aware of earlier enough to start really thinking about the baby and then ended up spending my birthday in the hopsital having an ultrasound because i had started miscarrying the night before and the my doctor did an examination and said it was starting and called the hospital to schedule an u/s for the next day...the doctor at the hospital told me the baby had already passed along with the fluids and bloodwork confirmed this my husband and i were absolutely devastated because while it was unexpected, it was still really, really difficult.

i keep going back to look at the pregnancy test (well, the picture of i took of it anyway) and wondering if i am wrong and i didnt see anything and my body is just playing tricks on me. my period is 2.5/3 weeks late, my breasts dont hurt (but they didn't really hurt when i was pregnant with my son either), i keep feeling dizzy when i stand up (an issue for me in the last pregnancy--i lost track of the amount of times i fainted, felt like i was going to, or was just off-balance in general), constipated (sorry if thats tmi), a bit nauseous (i never had full blown morning sickness before, either), really, really bloated, lots of peeing, my lower back hurts and im getting lots of cramping and i had what i think may have been a tiny implantation bleed but i just keep waiting to start bleeding at the same time because i keep telling myself couldnt possibly be pregnant again. i dont mean to sound pessimistic or anything, i just dont want to get my hopes up after having these two recent miscarriages. my husband has tried to be supportive told me just to wait and be patient and not to stress out but i know hes saying it also because he doesnt want to get his hopes up either...im not telling anyone that i think another one might be on the way until i know for sure what is going on because i dont want to repeat what has happened the last couple of times

i just dont know what to think. i dont want to be stressed out about all this. the doctor at the hospital reassured my husband and me when i went through the most recent miscarriage that having had miscarriages doesnt necessarily mean a future of having them...but its still in the back of my mind and i cant stop thinking about it or doubting that i even saw anything on the test in the first place. i dont really know what i expect anyone to say, i just needed to get all this out. thanks.

 

[krwh]

No one? Ok

 

[croydongirl]

So sorry for your losses. All of mine were before 6 weeks, but I was still devastated when they happened. I would say, go to the docs and get a blood draw done to test your beta levels. At this point the only way to know for sure whats going on is by blood work, that way if you are pregnant you could possibly start on low dose aspirin or progesterone or something else your doctor might suggest to help this pregnancy stick.
Pregnancy test can be mean, but in my experience when I saw a line, I saw a line. I never got false positives even though I know some people do.
After a while the test may develop an evaporation line so I would stop looking at it now. Test again in the morning, or even in a couple of days. Your levels should have doubled in 2 days so you should get a clear line by then.

Wishing you all the best. So sorry you have to go through this, but glad you have the support of your hubby to help get you through xx

 

[krwh]

Thank you croydongirl I think ill have to make an appointment with a doctor then. And by looking at the test, I mean a pic I took of it at the three minute mark of the test to show to my husband. I know its kind of sad I keep looking at it but there ya go...and evaps are bad, I know, I've had those before. Also, congrats to you for your little bubba on the way

 

[croydongirl]

Thank you. We are thrilled to be having a little boy. You know just what we are in for!! ha ha
I was paranoid about tests. i just used FRERS in the end so I could have a constant reference, and I never got evaps on those. But I tested positive with this one at 9dpo and when they tested my levels it was only 6.6 hcg and they told me not to have hope (5 and below are considered negative) but then it just kept doubling, or more than doubling. There is hope even for slow starters like this little guy! Wishing you all the best. And I hope the doctor has good news for you x

 

[tuckie27]

How recent was your latest m/c? Some women take a long time to get back to "0"...if it was in the last couple months, it could be residual HCG from last pregnancy. Definitely go get your beta levels tested either way. Good luck

 

[krwh]

It was in november....Im sorry I didn't get back to either of you earlier, I've started miscarrying agajn today. :'( :'(

 

[croydongirl]

Oh, I am so, so sorry. My heart goes out to you because I know exactly how that goes. I hope that giving your little man extra snuggles can help ease the pain a little.

I am feeling so blessed by this pregnancy, but I fear that once we have a baby m/c might be even more painful because you know what you are missing. I hope that your heart ache will not overwhelm you. I believe you will have another successful pregnancy someday, I hope it is soon. You are such a strong woman and you will get through this. Thinking of you x

 

[krwh]

Thank you croydongirl. Your words are so, so kind and they mean a lot, thank you. My heart hurts, yes, but you're right, giving my little man lots of cuddles really helps (when I can catch him....hes not really into cuddles-he's more like a tornado, running around the house in extra loud explorer mode but I'm sure you'll discover this soon!) but it still hurts. At the same time, I'm so happy for people that have had the pain of miscarriages and will be holding their little bubbas soon...it helps to be happy for others and to stay positive...it really helps. Your words really have touched me though, thank you.

 

[tuckie27]

So sorry.

 

[beautifuloaks]

I read that 80% of woman who have previous miscarriages go one to have a sucessful pregnancy?