Nerves getting the better of me, and weird cramps.

[anie]

Hey,

Well it seems like I'm feeling a sinky today, in fact my mood has been sinking for a few days now.

I started to feel better, as the mild cramps I had in weeks 5 & 6 just seemed to disappear in week 7 with the appearance of nausea & sore boobies.

But they've reappeared over the last couple of days, well I say re-appeared, but they're different, it almost feels like burning from the inside, like not really bad or anything, just that's the only way I can think of how to describe it.

I still have nausea when I wake up and often at night, and a lot of it when hungry. My boobs aren't as sore as last week, but are still tender when squeezed. But still I keep getting this sinking feeling that it's all gonna go wrong.

We haven't told any friends or family, just really don't want to until we've seen a heartbeat.. And OH is really busy with work, and is just as afraid as me, and doesn't really like to talk about it at all. So I feel like I'm driving myself crazy with it all. I was thinking of booking an early private scan, but I'm just so afraid there's going to be nothing there.

I have my first midwife's appointment tomorrow morning, and I'm even nervous about that, like convinced that the blood and urine tests aren't going to be good and stuff. And then I feel like by thinking negatively it's all going to go wrong and it's all going to be my fault, that because I've thought it so much, my bodies just gonna do that.

So basically I'm going mad.

 

[eckarta]

I think those are all normal feelings..

it seems from the minute that test says positive we become more in tune with our bodies.. so i can totally understand your "are these pains different?" type of deal..

I get those same feelings about going to the doctor and finding out that something has been going wrong.. i go to the doctor in just a few hours and TBH im scared spitless.. what if we get in there and she puts the gel on for the ultrasound and she see's nothing... i would be crushed... but at the same time.. i know all my symptoms are good and that every pregnancy is different.. so im trying to be positive and will be better once i can see our little baby (at least praying for just one, last time i had 2 in there, hehehe)

Best of luck and just keep your head up!!!

 

[Smiler13]

Hi anie, it is nerve-wracking isn't it! Sometimes I feel quite sane and sometimes like I am totally losing the plot!

I had similar "burning" / stinging sensations at a similar stage and the next scan was fine.

Hope the midwife appointment goes well.

I have found early scans (6, 8 and 10 weeks, the "standard" twelve week one is tomorrow and am freaking out as usual) useful in managing the anxiety, and decided that even if the news was bad I'd rather know than wonder. But people handle stuff differently and is not necessarily the best approach for everyone.

Best wishes for the rest of your first tri.

 

[anie]

Thanks both of you...

Guess we'll never stop driving ourselves loopy then?

I went to the appointment, and woke up late, so didn't manage to get an breakfast, and ended up with my head between my knees feeling very hot when they did the bloods, I have never had a bad experience with have blood taken before, I never used to eat breakfast.
But anyway, what a lovely way to spend my first meeting with my midwife, how embarrassing!
Cramps continued through yesterday but had disappeared this morning, only to come back with a nasty vengeance by lunch time, think I'm going to go and see my GP in the morning as they're starting to worry me, and with all the madness at the midwife's appointment they didn't get mentioned.