Hello ladies
I haven't posted in here for ages so probably don't know some of you. My LO was born at 27 weeks in March 2010 after I developed pre-eclampsia.
Anyway....our GP has referred me to a consultant to discuss the risks of any future pregnancy, and the appointment is tomorrow - in the hospital where it all started. (I was supposed to be having Sophie in that hospital but was transferred at 26+5 because they didn't have the facilities for such an early baby).
I have all these awful memories of going to that hospital every day for scans and BP monitoring, blood tests etc, and being given a talk about survival rates of babies born at 26-30 weeks I spent that whole discussion in tears!
We have to go to the pregnancy assessment unit for my appointment, to the exact bit where I used to have to go, and we have to see the same consultant who told me I wouldn't go past 30 weeks, and then at 26+5 that I might not go more than 10 more days. Thankfully, he is absolutely lovely so I know he will be sensitive but it's just the thought of going back there and seeing the place again and the same person etc. I've been back to the hospital where Sophie was born and spent 12 weeks in NICU loads of times and don't feel like this - I think it's because when we were last in that hospital, we had no idea what the outcome was going to be, and I was so terrified.
I'm actually more worried about that than I am about what he is going to say!
I think the thing that might make it easier is the fact that we will have Sophie with us this time and we know she is fine!
This is maybe a bit of a pointless thread but I know this is the place to find people who will be able to understand how I'm feeling!
Anyone who's on my facebook please don't mention this as we're not really telling people about the appointment, other than a couple of very close friends.....you know what people would be like, assuming we're going to start trying again! I'm just hoping nobody I know sees us in the pregnancy assessment unit and puts two and two together and makes 5
I haven't posted in here for ages so probably don't know some of you. My LO was born at 27 weeks in March 2010 after I developed pre-eclampsia.
Anyway....our GP has referred me to a consultant to discuss the risks of any future pregnancy, and the appointment is tomorrow - in the hospital where it all started. (I was supposed to be having Sophie in that hospital but was transferred at 26+5 because they didn't have the facilities for such an early baby).
I have all these awful memories of going to that hospital every day for scans and BP monitoring, blood tests etc, and being given a talk about survival rates of babies born at 26-30 weeks I spent that whole discussion in tears!
We have to go to the pregnancy assessment unit for my appointment, to the exact bit where I used to have to go, and we have to see the same consultant who told me I wouldn't go past 30 weeks, and then at 26+5 that I might not go more than 10 more days. Thankfully, he is absolutely lovely so I know he will be sensitive but it's just the thought of going back there and seeing the place again and the same person etc. I've been back to the hospital where Sophie was born and spent 12 weeks in NICU loads of times and don't feel like this - I think it's because when we were last in that hospital, we had no idea what the outcome was going to be, and I was so terrified.
I'm actually more worried about that than I am about what he is going to say!
I think the thing that might make it easier is the fact that we will have Sophie with us this time and we know she is fine!
This is maybe a bit of a pointless thread but I know this is the place to find people who will be able to understand how I'm feeling!
Anyone who's on my facebook please don't mention this as we're not really telling people about the appointment, other than a couple of very close friends.....you know what people would be like, assuming we're going to start trying again! I'm just hoping nobody I know sees us in the pregnancy assessment unit and puts two and two together and makes 5