FairyDust2009
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Hi Everyone,
First of all I am so pleased to have stumbled across this forum. I think it may well keep me sane for a while! I should apologise as this could be very long!
My husband and I got married in June last year. I am 30 and he is 32. We both agreed to wait for a year or so before trying for a baby, as DH lost his job and has decided to retrain as a teacher.
Just after we got married I started having terrible stomach pains and lots of intermittant bleeding, so my doctor referred me to the hospital. After some tests the doctor said I may well have endometriosis, as he spotted some clouding around my left ovary. Also said I had a small and tilted uterus. He asked me to take the pill for 3 months none stop, but the first month I did I was in so much pain I just decided to come off it (after speaking to DH obv). The bleeding stopped and the pain subsided, apart from during and post sex, and I'm due to go back to the hospital for a follow on appointment on Friday. But clearly hearing the word endo has plagued my mind about whether I can conceive.
To make matters worse, in September my DH suddenly lost his dad, so as you can imagine we had the worst first 6 months of married life ever!
Anyway, recently I've been feeling more and more broody and thinking more and more about a baby. We've both said if circumstances (ie DH work situation) was different we would start trying tomorrow, but he is set that until he has passed his degree he doesn't want to try.
I can totally understand this, but it doesn't stop how my heart and my body are feeling. I'm scared I'm going to take so long to conceive, or wont be able to at all, or that by the time we do we'll have lost another member of our family - its kills me knowing that my FiL will never see his grandchildren and it knocks me sick thinking that this could happen again. I know its a fact of life that people come and people go, but losing him has really shaken me up and made me question everything.
All I can do is think about how much I want a baby and its getting me down constantly.
Sorry to have moaned so much on my first post but I just needed to get everything off my chest.
FD x
First of all I am so pleased to have stumbled across this forum. I think it may well keep me sane for a while! I should apologise as this could be very long!
My husband and I got married in June last year. I am 30 and he is 32. We both agreed to wait for a year or so before trying for a baby, as DH lost his job and has decided to retrain as a teacher.
Just after we got married I started having terrible stomach pains and lots of intermittant bleeding, so my doctor referred me to the hospital. After some tests the doctor said I may well have endometriosis, as he spotted some clouding around my left ovary. Also said I had a small and tilted uterus. He asked me to take the pill for 3 months none stop, but the first month I did I was in so much pain I just decided to come off it (after speaking to DH obv). The bleeding stopped and the pain subsided, apart from during and post sex, and I'm due to go back to the hospital for a follow on appointment on Friday. But clearly hearing the word endo has plagued my mind about whether I can conceive.
To make matters worse, in September my DH suddenly lost his dad, so as you can imagine we had the worst first 6 months of married life ever!
Anyway, recently I've been feeling more and more broody and thinking more and more about a baby. We've both said if circumstances (ie DH work situation) was different we would start trying tomorrow, but he is set that until he has passed his degree he doesn't want to try.
I can totally understand this, but it doesn't stop how my heart and my body are feeling. I'm scared I'm going to take so long to conceive, or wont be able to at all, or that by the time we do we'll have lost another member of our family - its kills me knowing that my FiL will never see his grandchildren and it knocks me sick thinking that this could happen again. I know its a fact of life that people come and people go, but losing him has really shaken me up and made me question everything.
All I can do is think about how much I want a baby and its getting me down constantly.
Sorry to have moaned so much on my first post but I just needed to get everything off my chest.
FD x