New here and need some support

[heres2hoping]

i am in desperate need of some support right now. I have a 3 year old son, in which i had a wonderful, eventless pregnancy. But this last year my husband and i have been trying to conceive again. I have managed to get pregnant 3 times so far. The first ended in a missed mc at 8 weeks, and the second a natural mc at just over 6 weeks. I got a BFP last Sunday, 9 dpo and have been FREAKING out ever since. I am terrified. And the thing that makes it so much worse is that i feel like i have no support system at all. I have loads of family that are wonderful and my husband is great. But no one gets it. They would rather not approach any topic with me concerning my mc's. Since ppl found out i had my mc#1 and then #2, no one has brought up the topic again. That left me feeling completely isolated. Now, being pregnant again, not only am i reliving the past mc's, I can't stop worring about it happening again A;; my husband says is he is sure everything is going to be fine. I want to strangle ppl when they say that, lol. I hate thinking that i am not going to get to enjoy this pregnancy at all. It makes me really sad. I don't understand how getting the thing i wanted most in the world, could make me so unhappy. I need to somehow figure out a way to pick myself up, dust myself off and release all of these negative thoughts. Easier said than done. Any support or advice would be greatly appreciated

 

[Tournesol]

All I can say is, I understand how you feel. It's easy for others to say "I'm sure it will be fine" but you have to say it to yourself too. You have to believe it because it's out of your hands now.
Stay strong and try to be positive x

 

[Sarena]

Sorry to hear how isolated you feel amongst everyone! The truth is, there is very little anyone can say, there is no magic wand to wave away our fear and insecurities. Its important to express it, but not dwell on it.

I had a MMC, and 2 natural MCs at 5 weeks. On 4th pregnancy, got prescribed progesterone and aspirin, now 13 weeks! There is a great chance that your pregnancy will be fine this time. Just take one day at a time.

 

[Bumpblessing4]

I see it has been two weeks since you wrote this, so I hope you are doing okay. I know how hard pregnancy after loss can be as I've been there four times before over the years and am still doing it right now. The first trimester is soooooooo tough, but even now, I'm still afraid daily. Sometimes it's just difficult even to breathe and put one foot in front of the other. I envy those women who can enjoy the first trimester in spite of previous loss (I have never been able to do this) or those to whom it never even occurs that something might go wrong. I can enjoy the other things in my life, though the possibility of loss always exists, so why can't I do the same in my pregnancies? Daily, I ask God to hold this baby in my womb, and somehow that gets me through. I know He won't leave me alone and that if He has a plan for this child's life on earth, it WILL happen, but it's still hard, because I know that even His friends are not immune from suffering. He does bring me peace when I let Him though. Hang in there!