I'm not exactly sure why I signed up for this site...maybe it's because lately I've been consumed with the idea of pregnancy and having a baby. It really sucks though because I know that it cannot and will not be a part of my life for a VERY long time. I am not financially stable in the least bit, I'm only 24, and I haven't even finished up my college career. Oh, not to mention my last real relationship ended 6 months ago. I guess I'm here out of curiosity. I sometimes secretly wish that I accidently get knocked up so that I can have an excuse to just become a mom. Is that weird?? I know I am so young I dont know why I'm having these thoughts! It's really freaking me out. I feel like it would give my life some kind of purpose and meaning, something I am lacking. I have NEVER felt like this in my life. I wish I could just fall in love with someone really financially stable so I could have a little one of my own sooner than later.
Also, I guess I should mention that I have been pregnant before..twice in fact. The first time was with my first boyfriend at the age of 18 out of sheer irresponsibility and I had an abortion. The second time the condom broke with a different guy, one I had hardly known really, and I had to get another abortion about 1 1/2 years later. After those experiences I vowed to myself that if I ever got pregnant again I would have the baby. Not only because it's really not good for your body but also because I am literally traumatized by these experiences. I feel like an awful person and I could NEVER go through with that again.
I'm also here because I am wondering if there are any of you out there who've suffered from eating disorders such as bulimia and gone on to have healthy babies. I have suffered from bulimia for the past 9 years of my life and I'm terrified I won't be able to have a healthy baby because of that and the fact that I've also had 2 abortions. I feel like I've ruined my body and now will have to pay for it by not being able to have my own child one day. :'( Any feedback/advice would be so greatly appreciated. Thanks ladies. 
Also, I guess I should mention that I have been pregnant before..twice in fact. The first time was with my first boyfriend at the age of 18 out of sheer irresponsibility and I had an abortion. The second time the condom broke with a different guy, one I had hardly known really, and I had to get another abortion about 1 1/2 years later. After those experiences I vowed to myself that if I ever got pregnant again I would have the baby. Not only because it's really not good for your body but also because I am literally traumatized by these experiences. I feel like an awful person and I could NEVER go through with that again.
I'm also here because I am wondering if there are any of you out there who've suffered from eating disorders such as bulimia and gone on to have healthy babies. I have suffered from bulimia for the past 9 years of my life and I'm terrified I won't be able to have a healthy baby because of that and the fact that I've also had 2 abortions. I feel like I've ruined my body and now will have to pay for it by not being able to have my own child one day. :'( Any feedback/advice would be so greatly appreciated. Thanks ladies. 
