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torch2012
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Hi all I hope it's ok for me to post here. I lost my son in Jan 2010 at 25+5 weeks due to fetal hydrops. I got my clomid BFP on Christmas day 2010. No one ever asked me what sex I would like our baby to be, no one ever approached the subject. I wanted a girl as felt I was not in the right place for another boy. My wish was granted and Abby was born healthy in August 2011. I am currently 11+2 weeks pregnant and totally terrified. I thought things would get easier but they are harder this time. I think because this baby was conceived naturally unlike my others and I feel it could all be snatched away. Now people constantly ask what gender we want and more often then not say oh a boy would be nice. I never know what to say because in all honesty I would love a boy now but I feel immense guilt because of that. Like I should never want another boy. Oh gosh O sent even know if I am making sense. Just needed to write it down. Thanks for reading
and gender was just a big part of that difference. I however am having another boy, and although i was put off by that at first I'm just as excited either way now. I just want the baby to be healthy. I don't really care what it is so long as it comes out okay. And for some reason my mind told me initially that if it were a girl then that's the difference i was looking for. I now know that to be wrong. The difference is everything. The number of vessels in the cord, my doctors, my outlook and this little guy himself. Each one an affirmation that this is not the pregnancy before. Hugs to you and no worries.
