Not sure where to post this really!

[spanner89]

i miscarried back in july/august, and then had an ectopic pregnancy end of september - both of these times were due to the morning after pill being taken too late, and the second time i'd been given the injection and it'd caused an ectopic pregnancy- which is rare but does happen.

I had an incident about 4 weeks ago with a guy, condom broke, took MAP- BUT have just been told a brand of antibiotics i was on makes it less effective.

I'd been feeling a bit ill, and had constant bleeding for about a week and a half, not a normal menstrual flow- blow light, dark and sticky- I assumed it was a period. However, i got worried it was a pregnancy- thought it was impossible though, as my whole system was messed up with hormones. However i've taken two..one negative (well only slightly, theres a VERY faint line, but not as strong) and one thats positive with a very prominent line.

I'm broken up with the father, and last time i found out i was pregnant he really lost it, and was adament he wanted to get rid of it - when i didn't. and in a horrible way i was relieved it was ectopic as it took away making that horrible decision- hurting and upsetting my ex or getting rid of a child.

I'm scared i may have to make that decision again, I really am..Im trying to keep positive and remind myself its very unlikely i am pregnant, as the ectopic pregnancy left one of my tubes pretty un-usable.

Im really worried about going the doctors tomorrow..I know I have too, but I have so much going on..and am still recovering from the last two I don't know how i can handle it.

Just want someone to talk too really..i feel so stupid.

im scared...really scared

 

[spanner89]

anyone..i know im new here...sorry

 

[Ribeanaaa--x]

Well hun i think the only thing you can do is go to the docs & get the result confirmed.
&& whatever the result you shouldnt be considering what your ex would want...you gotta make the decision for you & you only. I had an abortion for a boyfriend & it fucked my head up biggg time.
Id just go to the docs, & if you get a positive result, take some time to get your head round it before you even consider letting the father no.
Msg me if you wanna chat. xx

 

[Drazic<3]

You need to get to the docs and get things confirmed. I just wanted to drop by and give you and say dont panic. Things will be okay and will get sorted, just look after yourself right now

 

[dizzy65]

awe i am sorry to hear that i hope everything works outfor u..

 

[Sarah-Jane]

Aww hun, didn't wanna read and run...
Sorry for both of your losses
I've personally never been through such a traumatic experience so won't be much use for advice
But if you're at the docs tomorrow, you'll be able to get a definite result and you'll be able to plan on from there. Don't even consider your ex at the mo hun, this needs to be about you, no-one else. If the test is negative, try and move on from your ex if that's what you want and plan your life... if the test is positive then it needs to be YOUR decision only, no-on else's choice matters. I was almost forced into an abortion by my boyfriend but I ended up standing my ground and telling him no. He has stuck by me although it has been hard and at times it does feel like I'm doing it alone but it's all well worth it.
Just make sure you get your head around the result tomorrow before informing your ex.
Really do hope everything works out for you hun and I'm here if you wanna chat Good Luck xxx