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Hi Butterflywolf, I'm a bit in the same position. This was an unexpected pregnancy for me and hadn't really planned on having kids for 2-3 more years. I've had a couple really early losses in the past. I'm still just taking this day by day but I've circled around from super anxious to excited but I don't think I'll feel entirely comfortable until I hear a heart beat and sort some life stuff out. It's not too easy to get sorted though since I'm not telling work yet, I know everyone will be completely shocked when they find out and I'm kind of dreading the awkwardness.Sorry I haven't been active. It's taken some time to adjust to realizing we're pregnant again. I also didn't feel like I could make connections much here due to this being a huge opps pregnancy. We had always discussed if this happened we'd be all right with it, which we are, but I don't feel like I can be the same excited as many of you feel. Which I am so happy for all of you!
I also am one who is more cautious due to having three miscarriages when we where trying to have babies. I don't want to get too close to this little star as I know what has happened in the past. It's how I was with my two successful pregnancies until out of the first tri.
Anyway I go for my first u/s on Friday which I'm not sure how I feel as it's the earliest I've ever had one. Usually I go around the 8 week mark, but I'm guessing my doctor wants to see where we are since my LMP was Dec. 28th and apparently I O'd around Jan 28th instead :/ Which has never happened but it's the only day we had sex.
So I'm guessing at how far along we are. I'm scared we wont see a heartbeat on Friday. I know my body to a T. We had sex on the 28th, fairly certain that Friday the egg implanted as it felt the same as it did any other time I had fallen pregnant and is how I knew we where pregnant. A few days later, on Weds I tested positive (pretty sure I may have tested positive on Tuesday if I would have taken one). So I hope I am where I am and we'll see the heartbeat.