On the road again graduates

[RedWylder]

This thread is begun with the hopes that all the lovely ladies I met in my journey to concieve a rainbow will have a place to share about the horrors and joys of being pregnant again. We do not leave those behind who are still trying for their rainbow but we need a place of our own for those in the next part of their journey. If you would like to know our roots, our thread and stories can be found here: https://babyandbump.momtastic.com/t...lace-women-getting-into-ttc-groove-again.html

 

[anchor08]

Thanks Red! How far along are you now? Any appointments coming up? I can't remember if you're getting specialist care or not. Since I had "only" had one miscarriage I was considered "normal", so no early appointments, my first one was at 10+5 and the wait nearly killed me! But that one was good, and today I have my NT scan! I'm a little bit nervous, but mostly very excited.

 

[rayraykay]

Yay! Thank you for creating this!

 

[RedWylder]

Thanks Red! How far along are you now? Any appointments coming up? I can't remember if you're getting specialist care or not. Since I had "only" had one miscarriage I was considered "normal", so no early appointments, my first one was at 10+5 and the wait nearly killed me! But that one was good, and today I have my NT scan! I'm a little bit nervous, but mostly very excited.

I'm like 4 wks 4 days and it can't go any slower. I do have one appointment scheduled for the 23rd of this month and I'm pretty excited because I'm going to get my first ultrasound then. I just have to make it that far. I never made it to my first appointment last time. I think they are scanning me early because my last period was way back in March and they think I'm further along than I am. I told them I ovulated really late so it's on them . I'll take the scan.

The dreams continue- two nights ago I had the extremely realistic miscarriage dream and last night I woke up screaming and punching my husband to kill the spider crawling on me (I had dreamed the spider but didn't realize it until after we had turned the lights on and looked around). Next up- sleep walking. Eeck.

So ladies tell me about your progression- how did you make it through the early months, what were your symptoms, etc. My boobs feel fuller but they barely feel sore at all. I keep waiting for the sore boobs everyone talks about to kick in. I'm a little nauseous every once in a while and tired (could be from my 5am runs).

 

[anchor08]

Welcome Rayray! Are you around 8-9 weeks now?

Red, those first few weeks were SO slow for me too. At 6+4 you should be able to see something good, but it would probably help your case if you bring your chart...they might be worried by your measurement otherwise if they're only going by LMP. I'll be counting down with you, it's so exciting!

As for symptoms...I wish I had journaled, but I think I was scared to journal because I did it every day last time and...didn't have a good ending. So I don't remember exactly, but I also didn't have much soreness until maybe 6 weeks or so. I have rarely felt nauseous, although around 6-7 weeks I started being sensitive to strong smells, and that would sometimes make me not feel like eating something. I was a bit tired from the start, and that increased until about 11 weeks (I also had a bad cold for a few weeks, so that contributed). It's great that you're running though, keep it up! I've been getting out 2-3 times most weeks (except for when I was sick) and it feels great.

I guess I would say as much as possible (which I know isn't much!) to relax about symptoms. I've always had a little something to remind me that I'm pregnant, but it hasn't been consistent...peeing a lot one day, heartburn the next, light-headed the next...and all fairly mild judging by what I hear from other ladies on these forums!

 

[rayraykay]

Congrats on being 12 weeks 5 days Anchor! That's incredible and must feel so good, although I am sure the anxiety never completely fades.

Red, I can promise you that after your first scan, it does get somewhat better. After I heard the heartbeat although I am still very anxious about it sticking it did relieve some of my stress. The other thing (EVERYONE SAYS THIS AND ITS HARD TO BELIEVE SOMETIMES!!!) is that every pregnancy is different. And early on, it is sometimes hard to tell you're pregnant and that BY NO MEANS is a prelude to something bad. Around 4-6 weeks I was having incredibly vivid dreams. One night I would hear the heartbeat in a dream, the next night I was bleeding. It was hard. My vivid dreams arent every night anymore (which of course, worries me, but I think that initial surge of hormones is gone. Hang in there, I have faith you will meet your rainbow.

AFM- I am 8 weeks 3 days now. Due 12/17/13. Christmas baby :-D I had an appointment on the 2nd, where I heard the heartbeat. It was- by far, the most amazing thing I have ever experienced. It was completely taken by it. I didn't want her to stop it. I wanted to keep listening and listening. The one thing about the appointment that freaked me out is that the baby was measuring small. About 6 weeks 5 days. My doctor has been my doctor since I was 16- so knows all about my miscarriage and kept reassuring me "It's normal Rachel, I swear it's normal. This appointment is cause for a party!" I kept asking and she kept saying it was okay. Then I of course did internet researching and found that as long as there's a strong HB and your doc says it's okay, it's okay. As far as symptoms go, my boobs are extremely sore and a lot bigger. It's pretty funny. I pee so much more, I have the white CM, I'm exhausted. Only nauseated sometimes, but haven't thrown up. Trying to be so happy!

 

[rayraykay]

Also definitely have a pudgy belly already... I'm assuming that's a good thing? Haha means it's still growing? I mean I don't have a full on bump yet but it's gonna be hard to hide soon. I'm only 5'2" so there isn't a lot of room for it to go other than out haha

 

[RedWylder]

All of your symptoms reassure me so much. Thanks! I definitely get sticky vibes from this one but I still check my panties every time I pee. And everytime I find no blood, my heart sighs a little. I'm excited for my scan. Once the baby has a heartbeat I'm going to use my doppler and listen all the time. So excited!

 

[rayraykay]

Ah yeah I was thinking about getting a Doppler too. Id love to be able to reassure myself whenever rather than waiting in agony. My next appointment isn't until the 30th annnnnd it's killing me. But if I'm not able to find the HB with the Doppler... Blah ill go crazy! Where did you get yours or where are you going to? I've seen them online for between 50-70 dollars...

 

[RedWylder]

OMG Help! I just went to the bathroom and when I wiped there was a tiny (TINY) bit of pink/brown mixed with normal discharge. I don't know what to make of it and I'm scared. My hubby and I haven't had sex recently so it's not my cervix and it's not the time when my period would have started. What could it be? I hope I'm not in the pre-stages of miscarriage. I'm going to have to buy tests tomorrow. Don't have any right now. Did either of you experience any spotting?

 

[rayraykay]

First of all- I'm so sorry that this happened... Because I can imagine how incredibly scary it is. Secondly- this does not at all mean a miscarriage is starting to happen. Many many women have some brownish/pink discharge and everything is okay. It happens in so many normal pregnancies. Some women have it the entire time and give birth to a beautiful baby. If I were you I would definitely get tests tomorrow and test, but I would also call you care provider and ask for/demand an earlier appointment. If you're working with the same doctor that handled your miscarriage, he/she should understand how incredibly important it is to have reassurance from them ASAP. If they are in a practice and your own doctor can't see you soon, request to see a partner. If you're having severe cramps and the blood is very red with clots (sorry that's really descriptive) I've heard that's when it could be worrisome. Otherwise- see your doctor and I know everything has a very good chance of being okay.

When I went thru my miscarriage in November it was a missed miscarriage, there was no blood and even tho it didn't "feel" totally right to me it was a first pregnancy so I didn't see it coming. With my current pregnancy, I haven't had any spotting. (Because of my previous experience this isnt totally reassuring for me...) However I have a co-worker who was spotting quite a bit early on recently and her baby is A okay. She went in for a reassurance scan and there was the baby and the heart beating away. As hard as it is, try to stay calm, get in bed and rest. Watch a movie, put your feet up whatever you do to relax. Then call the doctor and test tomorrow. I'm so sorry, sending you love and thinking of you.

 

[RedWylder]

Thanks ray ray. I took a bath lisenend to meditation music and i feel a bit better. Your words are very helpful. Thank you for taking the time to respond. Im working with a new doc this time around and i just went to an urgent care clinic when i miscarried so i dont have a regular provider that would know my history well. Hopefully the new doc/ midwife is supportive. I dont think my first scan can be moved up any sooner. Its already set for six weeks and from what i understand thats about as early as you can see a baby.

 

[anchor08]

Thanks ray ray. I took a bath lisenend to meditation music and i feel a bit better. Your words are very helpful. Thank you for taking the time to respond. Im working with a new doc this time around and i just went to an urgent care clinic when i miscarried so i dont have a regular provider that would know my history well. Hopefully the new doc/ midwife is supportive. I dont think my first scan can be moved up any sooner. Its already set for six weeks and from what i understand thats about as early as you can see a baby.

I'm so sorry for the scare, Red, that's the last thing we want to see! I agree with Rayray though, it's probably fine. Even if you wouldn't be able to see anything on a scan yet, could you have them do bloods a few times and see if your hcg levels are increasing correctly? I don't want you to worry more than necessary though, so if it were me, if the spotting stopped (and no cramping or red blood) then I would probably breathe a sigh of relief, stay in bed for a day or two (for emotional wellbeing as much as anything) and wait for the scan. If it continues but doesn't get worse, maybe ask for hcg testing. But how you feel is very important to your and the baby's health, so do what you need to do!

 

[rayraykay]

You are totally right, usually early on there's not much to see. My first scan this time around on April 18th I was barely 5 weeks along and all my doctor pointed out was the gestational sac and the yolk sac. Which, was nice to see and was reassuring that there was a pregnancy happening- but no heartbeat so the two week wait between that appointment and the one I had where I did heart the HB was very hard. If you can, relax today. Don't do anything physical you don't have to do. I also agree with anchor that blood testing can be helpful because it will tell you what your HCG levels are and this early on in pregnancy I think that's the most important indicator. Hang in there, and remember as long as it's not severe cramping that interferes with your breathing or really red blood it's probably 100% normal. I still cramp sometimes and it makes me SO NERVOUS but we have to remember...our body is supporting life right now, so we are gonna feel it.

 

[RedWylder]

I have a doctor's appointment at 12:30 today. It will actually be my first with my new midwife. I was supposed to meet her for the first time on the 23rd. Le Sigh. Miscarriages suck. They mess with your head. I will let you know what they say.

 

[rayraykay]

Okay sending positive vibes your way. I'm glad you're going. I will be waiting to hear from you, I'm thinking of you! xoxoxo

 

[RedWylder]

It's awfully quiet here. I think that's my fault. I've been taking a break because there's only so many times I can tell ya'll that I'm freaking out. I still am though. I went almost 5 days without having a melt down but today I had too much time to think and yep....wound up in tears. My U/S isn't until Thursday but I'm not expecting good things. Time could not pass any slower.

How are you guys hanging in there?

 

[rayraykay]

Awww red. I'm so so sorry. I am so hopeful for you tho, and I honestly believe things will work out for the best with you. Even if things aren't starting off the way you'd hoped. I think everything will be okay.

AFM- just the pinching sensations are enough to make me crazy. It's not constant, it's not severe, and everything I read tells me it's just growing pains. All my other symptoms are still there. Nauseated sometimes but never extremely bad- really sore breasts etc. exhausted. I've been putting off calling my doctor which is what anchor advised me to do and I know I need to now. I think I will on Monday. The pinching isn't just in one spot- it moves around so that makes me calm down a little bit. I ordered a Doppler as well in hopes that being able to hear the heart will help calm my nerves in between appointments. How are you anchor?

Hang in there Red. I believe everything will be okay.

 

[rayraykay]

Wow 14 weeks today anchor! Congrats!!

I really hope that's you & me soon Red, it will be. It has to be. xoxoxo

 

[RedWylder]

Oh anchor that's so exciting! Your success gives me hope. I just wish I heard more good stories about low betas working out. Most things I read wind up freaking me out more so I try not to read things. I did however poas today with diluted urine. I was hoping for the test line to be darker than the control line. It wasnt and I'm scared all over again. My darn hcg just needs to hurry up and rise already. Grrr. Ray ray once again thank you so much for believing in my baby. If it helps I think your stabbing pains don't mean much. Could it be gas? I believe hings are going to work out for you just fine.