nkbapbt
Double Preemie Momma
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I have only posted here twice, once to announce we found out Christmas eve we were pregnant, and another time in someone else's post. Im posting now to say that on Thursday I was feeling a bit "off" I went to the doctor already knowing the baby was gone, knowing in my heart. The doctor did an internal and said there was growth and everything felt ok, but sent us for an ultrasound just in case. The next day we went, and I knew from the amount of time the tech was taking and not saying much my horrible gut feeling was right. The doctor came in and looked, then just said "get dressed I have to make a call". He came back and said there was no heart beat and the baby had not grown since our first ultrasound where we saw a heartbeat and were told we were 7 weeks and 5 days.
I went yesterday for my d&c and now I just feel so empty and lost inside. Im mad at myself and angry with my spouse for no real reason. I just want to hide and be alone.
The baby was a surprise but a wonderful and wanted one.
My bf says we can try again ASAP, and I want too. But Im so scared it will happen again.
I just want to wake up and find out this isnt real.
I went yesterday for my d&c and now I just feel so empty and lost inside. Im mad at myself and angry with my spouse for no real reason. I just want to hide and be alone.
The baby was a surprise but a wonderful and wanted one.
My bf says we can try again ASAP, and I want too. But Im so scared it will happen again.
I just want to wake up and find out this isnt real.