Its been just over 6 weeks since we lost Rosie at 18 and a half weeks. I'm finally getting to the stage where I can talk about her, although still feel on edge waiting for her cremation date and post mortum results. It was such a shock when we lost her.
I had been admitted to hospital at 8 and 10 weeks due to heavy bleeding but it seemed to have cleared itself up and Rosie was on scans jumping around like a healthy happy baby. Then on Friday 11th may I got some light bleeding. Having had severe bleeding I was not too worried but phoned hospital and was told to pop on just to get things checked. They listened to her heart beat which was fine and asked me to just stay in the day room for a few hours just for observation. After about ten mins I got severe bleeding at which point I was admitted. They did a scan about half 11 and everything was fine, the sonographer mentioned the bleeding might be caused by a bicornorate uterus ( the first time anyone had mentioned this might be a problem!)
Then at about ten past one I started bleeding even more, to the point of near collapse and loss of consousness. By half one little Rosie was born, even the staff seemed truly shocked how quick everything happened. We spent tht afternoon with rosie. I was in hospital for five days having blood transfusions and being monitored, thankfully I avoided surgery and was allowed to eat on the saturday night once they were happy I didn't need any procedures.
Sorry for the ramble, it's hard to find people that understand how much a loss like the can affect you. Rosie was a perfectly formed little girl, our first child but people seem to think you can just forget and move on!
I had been admitted to hospital at 8 and 10 weeks due to heavy bleeding but it seemed to have cleared itself up and Rosie was on scans jumping around like a healthy happy baby. Then on Friday 11th may I got some light bleeding. Having had severe bleeding I was not too worried but phoned hospital and was told to pop on just to get things checked. They listened to her heart beat which was fine and asked me to just stay in the day room for a few hours just for observation. After about ten mins I got severe bleeding at which point I was admitted. They did a scan about half 11 and everything was fine, the sonographer mentioned the bleeding might be caused by a bicornorate uterus ( the first time anyone had mentioned this might be a problem!)
Then at about ten past one I started bleeding even more, to the point of near collapse and loss of consousness. By half one little Rosie was born, even the staff seemed truly shocked how quick everything happened. We spent tht afternoon with rosie. I was in hospital for five days having blood transfusions and being monitored, thankfully I avoided surgery and was allowed to eat on the saturday night once they were happy I didn't need any procedures.
Sorry for the ramble, it's hard to find people that understand how much a loss like the can affect you. Rosie was a perfectly formed little girl, our first child but people seem to think you can just forget and move on!
but he was, he was perfect. Like you, me and my partner lost our first baby in february and the grief never goes away - it lessens but it has changed me as a person forever. There is always something missing. 
