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magic93
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Ok so I am jus very fed up at this point. I need to vent and let everything out. Everybody I talk to does not understand at all. So if you are willing to read a longgg rant of a miserable overdue pregnant lady well here goes...
To start off for anybody who doesnt know my story on here.. My name is Lisa, im 19 and I am now 4 days overdue with my precious baby boy who shows noo signs of comming out on his own anytime soon. Now it might jus sound like I am being overdramatic its only 4 days right? Well these last 4 days have been the longest 4 days of my life. I was sure I was going to go early, thats what I and everybody else thought, even my doctor. So I am now at my wits end literally. I have the most loving OH, he is 28 next week, and we planned this baby and we're both so thrilled that it happened so fast. I got pregnant after we were only together for a couple months and that pregnancy ended in miscarriage. I guess the time jus wasnt right.. But my OH stuck by my side thru everything! The miscarriage was really hard on both of us. But we got threw it and started trying again after our one year anniversary and I got pregnant the same month. I got my BFP on July 14th 2012, and we were jus soo happy! On July 25th 2012, my OH got arrested, and has been in jail since then.. Now im not goin to get into what happend but I will tell you the accusations against him are false, but our justice system in Canada is definately prejudice. Its been really tough on me but I have stayed strong this whole time, which I am very proud of as I used to struggle with depression. Anyways being strong has been my only option, as I have got to be there for my OH and are baby in my belly. Ive spent the last 8 months working my ass off, to save money for the baby, and so I can give my OH money too. Everything my baby has I bought for him! Its been stressful knowing that I cant take it easy because I have to support our baby, until he can do so. I dont have support from my parents much, I mean they are there for me mentally I guess but financially I am on my own. I live with my Dad but ive always helped out with bills or whatever else for the house but anything I need I have to support myself. I am moving into the basement apartment as I the man who currently rents it out is moving the first of May. I definately need the space, but well be fine in the space weve got for the next month.. The thing that is most on my brain right now is I dont know when my OH will be coming home.. So its guna be really hard for me to pay $800 rent and support myself and my son without his help. I hope and pray he comes home before we move in, and ill ask you to say a prayer as well if your reading. It kills me that he is going to miss the birth of our child. This is definately not how we planned on things being, we still plan on getting married after hes home and were settled in. Its jus everything is very hard cuz its all on me right now. I go see him twice a week and ive given him money every week since hes been in there. I act like I am doing ok cuz I dont want him to see how I really feel, cuz I know it kills him too and there isnt anything he can do about it. Sometimes when im in the shower I jus breakdown cuz then nobody knows, but then I think about how my son is feeling it too, and then I feel so bad. I barely even let out my emotions, so its really hard. Now being overdue is making me completely crazy.. I jus want my son to be here now, hes all Ive got right now. I was planning on having a completely natural birth, but now im not sure whatll happen because my doctor has scheduled an induction for Saturday and I dont know what to expect...
Ok im done. If you had the patience to get thru my rant god bless you. Although nothing anybody says can change my situation, I would appreciate any thing you have to say.
To start off for anybody who doesnt know my story on here.. My name is Lisa, im 19 and I am now 4 days overdue with my precious baby boy who shows noo signs of comming out on his own anytime soon. Now it might jus sound like I am being overdramatic its only 4 days right? Well these last 4 days have been the longest 4 days of my life. I was sure I was going to go early, thats what I and everybody else thought, even my doctor. So I am now at my wits end literally. I have the most loving OH, he is 28 next week, and we planned this baby and we're both so thrilled that it happened so fast. I got pregnant after we were only together for a couple months and that pregnancy ended in miscarriage. I guess the time jus wasnt right.. But my OH stuck by my side thru everything! The miscarriage was really hard on both of us. But we got threw it and started trying again after our one year anniversary and I got pregnant the same month. I got my BFP on July 14th 2012, and we were jus soo happy! On July 25th 2012, my OH got arrested, and has been in jail since then.. Now im not goin to get into what happend but I will tell you the accusations against him are false, but our justice system in Canada is definately prejudice. Its been really tough on me but I have stayed strong this whole time, which I am very proud of as I used to struggle with depression. Anyways being strong has been my only option, as I have got to be there for my OH and are baby in my belly. Ive spent the last 8 months working my ass off, to save money for the baby, and so I can give my OH money too. Everything my baby has I bought for him! Its been stressful knowing that I cant take it easy because I have to support our baby, until he can do so. I dont have support from my parents much, I mean they are there for me mentally I guess but financially I am on my own. I live with my Dad but ive always helped out with bills or whatever else for the house but anything I need I have to support myself. I am moving into the basement apartment as I the man who currently rents it out is moving the first of May. I definately need the space, but well be fine in the space weve got for the next month.. The thing that is most on my brain right now is I dont know when my OH will be coming home.. So its guna be really hard for me to pay $800 rent and support myself and my son without his help. I hope and pray he comes home before we move in, and ill ask you to say a prayer as well if your reading. It kills me that he is going to miss the birth of our child. This is definately not how we planned on things being, we still plan on getting married after hes home and were settled in. Its jus everything is very hard cuz its all on me right now. I go see him twice a week and ive given him money every week since hes been in there. I act like I am doing ok cuz I dont want him to see how I really feel, cuz I know it kills him too and there isnt anything he can do about it. Sometimes when im in the shower I jus breakdown cuz then nobody knows, but then I think about how my son is feeling it too, and then I feel so bad. I barely even let out my emotions, so its really hard. Now being overdue is making me completely crazy.. I jus want my son to be here now, hes all Ive got right now. I was planning on having a completely natural birth, but now im not sure whatll happen because my doctor has scheduled an induction for Saturday and I dont know what to expect...
Ok im done. If you had the patience to get thru my rant god bless you. Although nothing anybody says can change my situation, I would appreciate any thing you have to say.
