PAL Spring 2011 babies - Welcome Mason, Iris, Lily, Isaac, Luca & Dominic !!!!

[Beadette]

Thank you girls - I just can't stop grinning xx

 

[EpdTTC]

I hope I don't sound like a total insensitive jerk saying this...as I certainly don't mean it that way at all...but do any of you ever feel like reading the tragic stories of other women's losses adds to your own paranoia?

I feel bad saying that as I know I have been one of those women that have shared about my losses on BnB and was grateful to have the outlet and the support and I wasn't thinking about the fact that I'm sure some other women read my posts and felt freaked out...Hell, I have posted several times about my spotting/bleeding in this pregnancy and I'm sure other girls read it and thought-oh shit, please don't let that happen to me!

I think that the longer I go without a scan and the more I read about women having 12 weeks scans and being told everything was perfect only to find out at their next scan several weeks later that something went terribly wrong, that the more I panic. I know the incidents are few and far between and I have to keep telling myself that just because that happened to someone else or just because I have had past miscarriages, it doesn't mean that is going to happen to me...but sometimes my fear and worry gets the best of me and I wish I could go back and not have read what I read. I am paranoid enough I think, without adding countless possibilities to my already very vivid imagination. Sometimes I think I should stay off of the internet and quit feeding my anxiety, and on the other hand, I love my girls on BnB and I look forward to checking in and hearing how everyone is doing. Someone please tell me that I am not a total jerk for feeling this way and that I am not the only one.

 

[Beadette]

You are not a jerk hun! Perfectly natural! When i'm feeling a little paranoid I do try and stay away from the threads which are obviously bad news - not because I dn't care but because of self-preservation. These boards are so great in the sense that everyone can be supported no matter what they are going through - but sometimes the bad news can be overwhelming - and we know - we've been there!

HUGS hun xxxx

 

[roonsma]

Edp, strangely enough i have posted on the graduates thread about how i now feel i know too much about what can go wrong, i have to avoid these threads now as it really adds to my anxiety, you're totally normal and not a jerk hun xx

 

[tinybutterfly]

i feel the same Edp, i feel like i'm jinxing myself by reading

 

[~BumpyRide~]

Absolutely, Epd. I went on an online reading binge earlier looking for reassurance and ended up knee deep in worst case scenarios, which doesn't exactly help to ease the panic, especially if you've been there before. You're not a jerk at all. I think there are some days (when you're feeling extra nervous or down) that it's better to search out rosier tales and not dive too deep into the ones that kick the fears in harder or make you worry about things you hadn't even considered.

 

[debgreasby]

EPD you are certainly not on your own!

Don't stop sharing how you feel either....... we're all here for each other, no matter what x

Found Badger's HB last night... little monkey kept moving out the way! Still a paranoid wreck, but i don't think that will change any time soon.

to all x

 

[debgreasby]

14 + 1 lol, i'm gonna be a whale!

 

[Lianne1986]

14 + 1 lol, i'm gonna be a whale!

lovely bump

 

[Vickieh1981]

I don;t think that makes you a jerk. I read these things before and never considered I would be one of those who lost after many scans showing things were perfect and getting to the 2nd trimester.

Now though when I read them it reminds me that it can and did happen to me.

However I still read them because I htink people need the replies to see others care and their feelings are much more important at that time than my paranoia.

This afternoon I FINALLY have my appt to get my blood results. I lost Isabella 6.5 months ago. How can it take so long. So by this afternoon I will know if i do have a blood clotting problem.

 

[Vickieh1981]

Deb you look great xx

 

[Minimin]

Good luck Vickie Thinking of you. ps.I cant believe it has taken that long to get the results back!!! grrrhhh

 

[Lianne1986]

good luck vickie x

 

[Vickieh1981]

Me neither. It's so stupid because if I do have it I might have to start injecting and I am already nearly 17 weeks.

 

[debgreasby]

Good luck Vickie x

 

[tinybutterfly]

vickie, "cute" is all you'll be hun!
can't wait for my bump to appear properly

 

[SmileyShazza]

Nic – I love that My Jungle Family bedding is that the one in Mothercare? I saw it last weekend and am pretty sure that I might end up getting it – showed it to OH in the catalogue and he liked it too

Neen – Fantastic news on finding the HB. I loved the video of your choo choo train! I can’t wait for my Doppler to arrive now

EPD – I have had to restrict myself to what I read in the second tri section as there has been quite a bit of bad news in there recently and it started making me a little anxious. I know a lot of other girls (who haven’t even had losses) have said the same and some have even decided to leave the forum because seeing the sad stories have upset and worried them so much.

I think once you have had a loss it makes it even harder not to worry as your innocence has been taken away. I know that I have found it much harder this time and the worry builds up a few weeks after each scan for me.

I do agree though that it is important that people post their experiences and that nobody feels that they have to hide away during their time of need – the forums were a godsend to me when I had my loss and I think we can all understand just how important they are when you are in that situation yourself.

Deb – that bump is coming along nicely

Vickie – that’s disgusting that you have had to wait that long to get the results of your blood tests back. I hope it’s good news for you this afternoon.

As for me – had my 16w midwife appointment yesterday. She was very happy with the way things are going all my blood tests came back fine and my blood pressure was perfect. She found Tadpoles heartbeat straight away and said it sounded like it was beating exactly how she would expect it to – was so relieved to know that everything is ok in there

 

[MissMaternal]

Wow Deb nice bump!
Vickie i can't believe you've had to wait so long for your results! Hope everything is ok.

Had my Dating Scan this morning! OH and I were going to go to Mcdonald's for breakfast so we left early this morning. I was driving, and on the way, my car started juddering and a light on the dashboard came on. I was worried but we kept on going (nothing gets in the way of a pregnant woman and a Mcdonald's bagel, lol! or so i thought...) We were driving down the dual carriageway, and i felt my car starting to slow down. I pressed my foot further to the floor, but it wouldn't accelerate! So i had to stop on the hard shoulder. I phoned my mum while OH phoned the breakdown people. The breakdown people were going to be a while, so in the end, mum came to pick me up and take me to the hospital, while OH waited with the car for breakdown. We just found out my car's engine is quite badly damaged and will probably cost me hundreds of pounds. Great! Me and mum got to the hospital just in time! We were then kept waiting for an hour, so OH managed to sort the car out and get to the hospital in time for the scan! We went in and i couldnt look at the screen until i knew there was a heartbeat. I had a sneaky peak and saw a flicker! I was so happy! However, the sonographer said baby measures 10 weeks 2 days So now i've got myself all worried. I thought i was 12 weeks 1 day today, going by my LMP.

Why would baby be measuring so far behind?! Is it a problem? Will he/she catch up, or maybe just a slow grower?! Ahhh i'm confused! Does anyone have any experience of this?

Also, we saw a consultant afterwards, who was rubbish, and despite our history, we will not be getting any extra scans on the NHS. But...here's some pictures of little one

 

[Chimpette]

Hello ladies,

Looking forward to my scan tonight, and thought I would show you our little fatty at 16 weeks, hubby says that if fatty keeps growing like this, I might pop.. haha

 

[Vickieh1981]

Missmaternal (I don't think I know your name :-S) Were you charting? It's possible that you ovulated late that month. I mean I was charting with Maff and know exactly when I fell but they still put me back 3 days at my scan. They said that some babies are late implanters etc.

I am sure it's all fine as long as baby is looking good. Sucks to have to redo 2 weeks though.

Susan - you look great.