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[EpdTTC]

Girls I just need to share my paranoid feelings...and hopefully you gals can reassure me.

This is the longest I have gone without a scan. I feel bad complaining because I know many of you go weeks at a time...I was 8 1/2 wks at my last scan and on Monday I will be 10 wks one day. I know that it's not that long and I am not having anything happen to indicate something is wrong-no cramps, no spotting, and I even gag a few times a day and did barf a little after breakfast today...but as scan time gets closer I am really starting to worry that when I go the baby will have stopped growing or they won't see a heartbeat. I've even contemplated calling my RE's office tomorrow (they are open 7 days a week since they are a fertility center and you never know when a woman is going to ovulate!)and seeing if I can come in for my scan tomorrow instead of waiting one more day. Isn't that crazy? I don't even have a good excuse except pure paranoia and anxiety.

I don't really have a rational basis for these fears but I think I get scared because I read so many sad stories where women saw a heartbeat at like nine weeks and then went for a scan a couple weeks later only to discover that the baby had died. I am so terrified of something like this happening to me. I try to remind myself that just because it has happened to other women does not mean that it is doomed to happen to me. It's hard though because the reality is that I know that anything can happen at anytime. I just have to tell myself that everything has been looking really good, numbers were good, I have had four ultrasounds where I have seen the heartbeat, and that maybe women that had mmc didn't have all of those things. Ugh...why do we do this to ourselves?

 

[Amos2009]

EPD- I can't say it any better than you did in that last sentence. With my MMC ALL of my symptoms went away- that's how I knew something was wrong. With you still randomly puking and gaggin, PLUS the fact you have seen the heartbeat many times, you are going to be golden on your scan! It is natural to worry so I won't even try and tell you not to do that.

 

[hb1]

Hi Epdttc - just popping over from winter babies - I have felt like this before each scan - at 6+5, 8+4 and 13weeks - each time I convinced myself something was wrong and my heart was going like the clappers going in to the scan - now I am half excited and half terrified about my 20 week scan next Friday - I think it's natural to feel this way after previous loss. Like you say you have to try and think positive.

Remember that the chances of this all being fine really are on your side

hx

 

[debgreasby]

Dark line when POAS today ... still worrying, but not so much. Won't be doing that again!

 

[Beadette]

Morning lovelies! Spotting has stopped thankfully!

Xxxxx

 

[debgreasby]

Yay for no spotting ... hope u r having a fabby time in Skeg!

 

[jenny25]

its only natural too worry hun because what we have been through i think if you want your scan sooner then i wouldnt think its a problem , i dont think they would be cold hearted and say no i guess it can be for reassurance more than anything ,

well i had a horrible dream last night that i spotted and when i stood up the baby fell out me attatched to the cord and their was a small bubble at the end of it really freaked me out x

 

[debgreasby]

What a horrible dream!

 

[prgirl_cesca]

What an awful dream!

Glad the bleeding has stopped beadette.

Thanks for the warm welcome ladies. Went out last night for my sister in law (to be)'s hen do which was good, although I bowed out super early because everyone was so drunk. Never felt so sober in all my life! Only one person asked if I was pregnant, so all in all a good night. Last time I was pregnant we went to a family party and it was a nightmare, everyone nudging and winking to each other. I hate the point of having to hide the news but then never getting to tell anyone the good news after 12 weeks.

 

[Amos2009]

Glad your spotting has stopped Bead!
Deb- yay for dark lines- it always makes us feel better!
I woke up to heavy bleeding and cramping this morning so just like I thought a few days ago, I am out again. It's like I have started my period. No way everything is ok now

 

[lovehearts]

amos. I am crossing my fingers that everything is ok. Xx

 

[jenny25]

awww amos is their anyway you can get into the doctors office today hun x

 

[Amos2009]

I could go to the ER, but it would just be a waste of money. I already know I have lost this one. If there was something that could be done, I would go

 

[jenny25]

please just go hun it wont be a waste hun please do it xxx

 

[Amos2009]

It sounds terrible, but I can't afford to go. With me being out of work since January, we are doing good to pay our bills. It's so expensive to go over here
I'm ok. I am about to sit back and drink a cup of coffee (something I had given up of course when I got pregnant)

 

[fluffyblue]

Ohh Ames Im so sorry I know how you feel, your time will come just when is the question. I do hope its not bad news but I also know and have been through the symptoms and the emotional feelings you are going through. I will keep my fingers crossed though babe xxxx

 

[Amos2009]

Thanks Fluffy- I know you have been there.

 

[EpdTTC]

Oh Amos I feel just sick for you. I hope that somehow things are still ok, but you know your body better than anyone. I will keep you in my prayers today. Wish I could give you a big hug hun...or we could just sit in silence. I know how sometimes it's impossible to talk but yet you feel so alone and it's just nice to know someone is there if you want to talk.
Sending you the biggest boat load of comforting energy I can find.

 

[jenny25]

awww hunny xx

 

[Mummy2Angel.]

amos x