fairy1984
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Hi!
My story is certainly one of alot shorter journey than most others in LTTTC &AC but I honestly felt like they were the only people that understood how I felt out there so truely feel like one of the gang myself.
I am now almost 17 weeks pregnant and still in shock. I still have the scars in my heart from being told that I dont ovulate and I will never feel like a fertile person, but always carry around with me the emotional turmoil that I went through over the first few months of this year. I will never get back that bit of my heart that broke off when i was told i didnt ovulate even though i am now pregnant.
Anyway so this is my story...
I have known for many years that I have PCOS (for which i now feel lucky after seeing how many people dont realise until after they start TTC). my parter and I started thinking about TTC and when we should because of my PCOS. So i went to the dr and asked what i should do, she told me lots of people with PCOS conceive really easily and so not to worry. anyway, i was worried and you cant be told not to worry about these things unless you know. i felt like i wanted to know if it would be hard to conceive so that iknew if i had the luxury of time to wait to TTC or if i should get on it right now.
so, i came on to BnB and read about charting last autumn. even though we werent trying i started charting last september (having already noted down my periods since about may last year anyway). i tried temping but never got the rise at any point of the month. my periods were random and could be between 40-70 day cycles. i tried OPK's but either got negatives or all positives for 2/3 weeks (as many PCOS girls know, OPK's are not our friends).
Frustrated that i couldnt work out if i was ovulating, i went back to the DR armed with data and told her my situation. she said she could do a cycle day 21 test on me, so i thought "great, i'll finally know". however i was not prepared to hear my results! bascially my progesterone levels came back super low - almost off the chart and i was told i definatly hadnt ovulated and she was referring me to a fertility specialist. off me and my partner went and based on my data and tests he said that at most i had ovulated once in the last 7 months. i was devestated as i thought "how am i ever going to get pregnant with a window of 48 hours every 7 months" and i wouldnt even know when that window was open.
he prescribed us clomid in around feb this year. so i felt devestated from the emotional rollercoaster that i'd been on but at least i was given something. i did the research and realised that ICI and and IVF were bascially the next steps if clomid didnt work. IVF isnt given on the NHS until you're 37 in my area so this was a really stressful thought.
OH and i had stopped using contraceptives a while back based on the test restults and had resigned ourselves to a long uphill battle to get pregnant. i tried to be as chilled out as possible in my day to day life. I started reflexology and the lady concentrated on my overies and uterus to stimulate ovulation. I took bubble baths and listened to calming music, i slept for a good 8 hours each night and cancelled any social appointments to do with drinking, staying out late/ generally stressing my body type things. we were waiting for my cycle to end so we could start on the clomid.
i dont know if the things i did helped or what but while waiting for my period to come so we could start the drugs, at the start of april this year i got my bfp and i was shocked. to be told you dont ovulate and that you're in for a battle and then to see two lines is an overwhelming experience. we are so happy that things happened for us but i cant explain how or why it happened so quickly.
My thoughts are as follows:
My story is certainly one of alot shorter journey than most others in LTTTC &AC but I honestly felt like they were the only people that understood how I felt out there so truely feel like one of the gang myself.
I am now almost 17 weeks pregnant and still in shock. I still have the scars in my heart from being told that I dont ovulate and I will never feel like a fertile person, but always carry around with me the emotional turmoil that I went through over the first few months of this year. I will never get back that bit of my heart that broke off when i was told i didnt ovulate even though i am now pregnant.
Anyway so this is my story...
I have known for many years that I have PCOS (for which i now feel lucky after seeing how many people dont realise until after they start TTC). my parter and I started thinking about TTC and when we should because of my PCOS. So i went to the dr and asked what i should do, she told me lots of people with PCOS conceive really easily and so not to worry. anyway, i was worried and you cant be told not to worry about these things unless you know. i felt like i wanted to know if it would be hard to conceive so that iknew if i had the luxury of time to wait to TTC or if i should get on it right now.
so, i came on to BnB and read about charting last autumn. even though we werent trying i started charting last september (having already noted down my periods since about may last year anyway). i tried temping but never got the rise at any point of the month. my periods were random and could be between 40-70 day cycles. i tried OPK's but either got negatives or all positives for 2/3 weeks (as many PCOS girls know, OPK's are not our friends).
Frustrated that i couldnt work out if i was ovulating, i went back to the DR armed with data and told her my situation. she said she could do a cycle day 21 test on me, so i thought "great, i'll finally know". however i was not prepared to hear my results! bascially my progesterone levels came back super low - almost off the chart and i was told i definatly hadnt ovulated and she was referring me to a fertility specialist. off me and my partner went and based on my data and tests he said that at most i had ovulated once in the last 7 months. i was devestated as i thought "how am i ever going to get pregnant with a window of 48 hours every 7 months" and i wouldnt even know when that window was open.
he prescribed us clomid in around feb this year. so i felt devestated from the emotional rollercoaster that i'd been on but at least i was given something. i did the research and realised that ICI and and IVF were bascially the next steps if clomid didnt work. IVF isnt given on the NHS until you're 37 in my area so this was a really stressful thought.
OH and i had stopped using contraceptives a while back based on the test restults and had resigned ourselves to a long uphill battle to get pregnant. i tried to be as chilled out as possible in my day to day life. I started reflexology and the lady concentrated on my overies and uterus to stimulate ovulation. I took bubble baths and listened to calming music, i slept for a good 8 hours each night and cancelled any social appointments to do with drinking, staying out late/ generally stressing my body type things. we were waiting for my cycle to end so we could start on the clomid.
i dont know if the things i did helped or what but while waiting for my period to come so we could start the drugs, at the start of april this year i got my bfp and i was shocked. to be told you dont ovulate and that you're in for a battle and then to see two lines is an overwhelming experience. we are so happy that things happened for us but i cant explain how or why it happened so quickly.
My thoughts are as follows:
- maybe my progesterone test results were wrong (but then my random cycle lengths backed this up)
- maybe all my relaxation/reflexology etc helped stimulate ovulation (i was also doing exercise and eating well to help aswell)
i really dont know what happened, it feels like a miracle.
I wanted to share this story and i dont want to anger anyone because believe me i know we're so lucky this happened so fast for us but i truely will never feel like a normal fertile person and i bare the scars that other LTTTC&AC ladies do so i wanted to show that maybe test results arent always right, and maybe taking stock of your life and chilling out works (oh and believe me, saying "just relax and it'll happen" is the most annoying thing to be told when you're TTC, i know!)
good luck to anyone out there LTTTC with/out AC
