Please please dont read and run...i finally exploded

[Hotbump]

Ever since i had my first lo my mom and cousin would tell me to go see a therapist since i looked depressed but i always shruged it off. Well today lo woke up around 6am and i thought he will fall back to sleep.10 min later he was wide awake and out of no where i started to cry hysterically. Oh was getting ready to go to work and i told him please help me get lo back to sleep. 10 min later lo was still awake and i still couldnt stop crying and oh said to me pls dont do this to me im already late for work. So i screamed and said fine leave for work. Which he did! Even though at this point i was crying more hysterically he still left.i felt like pulling my hair and scream and cry and run into the middle of the street. Lo has finally gone back to sleep,i have a big fat headache,the thought of oh just makes me feel like hitting the walls...whats wrong with me?

 

[Ju_bubbs]

Sorry you're feeling like that! It may be post natal depression, go have a chat with your GP or HV about it. It could just simply be a case of over-tired, a bit emotionally overwhelmed by baby and ofcourse the struggle it can feel like when they're crying and wont get to sleep! Hope you feel better soon

 

[Jadelm]

Aaaaaw hunny firstly WHAT AN ASS! If it was me and even just my friend, let alone my OH and the mother of my child, was in that state I would just call in sick or just not bloody turn up!! Grrr!!!

But anyways.. it does sound like you could benefit from talking to someone hun. Sometimes you have issues and worries that stress you out but you didn't even realise they were there! And even the big obvious ones (like an idiotic OH) can be made so much better by talking to someone and getting an objective opinion on the situation etc. I'm seeing a counsellor for the first time next Tuesday just because after everything with my Dad being ill & passing away, FOB being a complete arse, Down's Syndrome drama and general worries and stresses of being pregnant I want to be fully settled mentally so I don't end up with PND. There's no shame in it hun, sometimes things can just get to be too much xxx

 

[Hotbump]

Thanks i think its abit of depression and stress mix with my hormones. My lo is 16 months and ever since he was born i have NEVER been away from him. I just dont know what to do i feel so alone.

 

[babybel]

Aww hun dont feel alone, it sounds like PND, try and get some help, go and see your GP

xx

 

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I was crying to the point of feeling like i was about to throw up,sorry tmi. I just feel abandoned by my oh you know? Im still crying,just not hysterically,and i cant seem to stop. Tears are just falling down my face.

 

[Pixxie]

Definitely talk to your GP or HV hun, sounds like PND to me. Hope you feel better soon hunny xxx

 

[Natasha2605]

Yeah like the others said you should try talk to someone. Is it an everyday thing? You feeling everything is on top of you? Or just particularly bad today?xx

 

[Eabha'sMum]

aww chick
hopefully its not PND, although if it is treated you will be fine... it may just be your tired, stressed or even just emotional. PND is where you feel inadequate, or that u can't cope... no matter... you need to talk to you HV or DR...
there is help out there!!

xx

 

[Babydance]

Aw hunny big hugs! I did the same and i had, apparently, PND. Although i think it was post traumatic stress as my birth was traumatic and it was alot to take in, to this day ive never seen anyone about it and i still have flash backs and i find it very hard to think about being intimate! (took me 11months to have sex again!) Speak to someone hun youre not alone, dont let it fester away at you till you feel you just cant cope. The help is there, and we're all here for you too!!! xxx

 

[Panda_Ally]

Sounds like ur over tired and struggling a little bit, dw all mums have been there at one point of another. have a chat with ur GP or Hv xxx

 

[stefni_x]

x

 

[debsxhim]

Ever since i had my first lo my mom and cousin would tell me to go see a therapist since i looked depressed but i always shruged it off. Well today lo woke up around 6am and i thought he will fall back to sleep.10 min later he was wide awake and out of no where i started to cry hysterically. Oh was getting ready to go to work and i told him please help me get lo back to sleep. 10 min later lo was still awake and i still couldnt stop crying and oh said to me pls dont do this to me im already late for work. So i screamed and said fine leave for work. Which he did! Even though at this point i was crying more hysterically he still left.i felt like pulling my hair and scream and cry and run into the middle of the street. Lo has finally gone back to sleep,i have a big fat headache,the thought of oh just makes me feel like hitting the walls...whats wrong with me?

Not to be offensive, but do you suffer from depression? I read a lot of your posts and I felt the same way [in different situations] when I was going through depression. It seems like you have more downs then ups, and thats not a healthy way to live. Seeing a therapist wont hurt, I see one. No one looks down upon you and they don't act like they do in the movies. Therapists just give you a few pointers on how to get out of your rough patch. Its not healthy to be crying, or stressed, or depressed around a LO or being pregnant. Im not trying to support your OH here, but assuming hes the only one there working, its his job to bring home the "bacon". It may seem horrible right now, but hopefully later you'll realize he probably just left so he could make money to support you guys. Some jobs will fire you if your late more then 2-3 times. He could have been a little bit more helpful, but you know, guys.

I highly reccomend you see a doctor or a therapist. It sounds like your going through more then just a bad mood.