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I feel utterly ashamed and rotten for what im about to type, as i blame myself for pretty much everything!
Ive always had it easy with Sebastian (my son), he was a great baby slept through really young, didn't bother when teething..Was a bit slow with his development but he seems to be catching up nicely..But i just wish i had that love for him that most parents have for their toddlers!
To be honest, i feel like i mean nothing to him!..He prefers the company of anyone else but his mum!..If my parents come and see us he will run to them and forget about me for the rest of the evening, and then he'd rather cuddle up with his dad (My OH), rather than sit with me, as soon as i sit next to him i get whined at or he moves :\
My OH seems to think that he doesn't want me because i spent much of his youth at college, and when i got back i was too exhausted to bond with him (I did half 5 mornings until about 4/5 in the afternoon)..But im just not sure myself!
I had a shock MC in January, and to be honest it really knocked me for six..I didn't tell anyone about it (my parents)..But i just felt so lost!, then the month after that my nephew was born and that just made me feel so angry and bitter!, I sometimes wish this baby would of survived instead of my son..Im full of resentment and i know its not my sons fault..I know that was a very heartless thing to say..But i just feel so..Meaningless!!
So after all this my question is can you still get PND when your child is older than a baby (He's almost 29 months), or am i 2 years too late?
Thanks!
Ive always had it easy with Sebastian (my son), he was a great baby slept through really young, didn't bother when teething..Was a bit slow with his development but he seems to be catching up nicely..But i just wish i had that love for him that most parents have for their toddlers!
To be honest, i feel like i mean nothing to him!..He prefers the company of anyone else but his mum!..If my parents come and see us he will run to them and forget about me for the rest of the evening, and then he'd rather cuddle up with his dad (My OH), rather than sit with me, as soon as i sit next to him i get whined at or he moves :\
My OH seems to think that he doesn't want me because i spent much of his youth at college, and when i got back i was too exhausted to bond with him (I did half 5 mornings until about 4/5 in the afternoon)..But im just not sure myself!
I had a shock MC in January, and to be honest it really knocked me for six..I didn't tell anyone about it (my parents)..But i just felt so lost!, then the month after that my nephew was born and that just made me feel so angry and bitter!, I sometimes wish this baby would of survived instead of my son..Im full of resentment and i know its not my sons fault..I know that was a very heartless thing to say..But i just feel so..Meaningless!!
So after all this my question is can you still get PND when your child is older than a baby (He's almost 29 months), or am i 2 years too late?
Thanks!