poas addiction turning into obsession!

[CortneyMarie]

I know there has probably been tons of threads devoted to his but here is another! Ok ladies I have been ttc since june of 2011 with one loss at 5 wks in march 2012 the point is I have been through an outrageous amount of hpts. Once I found ic I became an addict bc it became affordable. I didn't have any troubles with them at first I went months without even a dry evap then here and there a DRY evap would pop up and let me down. The past 3 months have been horrible I have had very faint lines on more tests than I have had stark white ones its a huge bummer and causes me to obsess..testing over and over and staring at all time frames. This month alone I had shadow lines on 3 tests in time frame! First was Friday 7dpo then Sunday 9dpo and again this morning. Neg. Digital and they have not gotten darker so I'm over it! I know I shouldn't get excited nemore and that contrary to what they say lines is not always a line that means a bfp! Anyone else having issues or need to vent ??
Peace, love and babydust to all of u lovely ladies!

 

[ces2008]

I didnt want to R&R. Ive been TTC sinc June 1, 2011 too! Ive never had a BFP, ever. And never get evap lines even. Of course, the only time I test is if I feel like Im late. I dont symptom spot. Just wait to see if AF comes! Im so sorry for your loss! I hope u get ur BFP soon!

 

[CortneyMarie]

Wow ces, how do you do it. I would love to be able to get in the frame of mind your in! I obsess every month and drive my self mad...I get so frusterated. I know its not worth it but I can't stop myself. I even threw my sticks behind a heavy peice of furniture so I would have to have the boy dig em out if I am ever late. Well guess who ended up digging them out the very next day on 11 dpo....this girl! I just absolutely hate having no control over this, in life I have always known that if I put all my effort into something I succeed but ttc is totally different there is little to nothing I can do and trying my hardest (preseed, diva cup, vitamins, quit smoking, quit drinking, bd like its our job, you know all that crap) and yet I am still defeated every month. Its just sooooo discouraging. SA showed borderline everything but nothing bad enough to prevent us from conceiving naturally. All is fine with me so far, next step is tube test then IUI. I don't want to have to go to the next step!!!

Anyway enough about you whats been happening in your journey have you tried anything different, had any testing? where are you in your cycle? I hope you see a sticky bfp soon as well

 

[ces2008]

Wow ces, how do you do it. I would love to be able to get in the frame of mind your in! I obsess every month and drive my self mad...I get so frusterated. I know its not worth it but I can't stop myself. I even threw my sticks behind a heavy peice of furniture so I would have to have the boy dig em out if I am ever late. Well guess who ended up digging them out the very next day on 11 dpo....this girl! I just absolutely hate having no control over this, in life I have always known that if I put all my effort into something I succeed but ttc is totally different there is little to nothing I can do and trying my hardest (preseed, diva cup, vitamins, quit smoking, quit drinking, bd like its our job, you know all that crap) and yet I am still defeated every month. Its just sooooo discouraging. SA showed borderline everything but nothing bad enough to prevent us from conceiving naturally. All is fine with me so far, next step is tube test then IUI. I don't want to have to go to the next step!!!

Anyway enough about you whats been happening in your journey have you tried anything different, had any testing? where are you in your cycle? I hope you see a sticky bfp soon as well

For awhile, I would symptom spot. But that just made me anxious. So I try to just focus on staying healthy.

I've had bloods done, an HSG, DH had a SA. I'm on my 5th round of Clomid (150mg). I ovulate on my own, but taking Clomid to try to increase my chances. I'm currently CD 11, so waitng to Ovulate.

Where are you in your cycle? WHat tests have you had done?

 

[melfy77]

Just wanted to say I'm sorry for your loss. I went through 2 early losses and it's so hard and unfair. i really hope you get your rainbow baby soon