I am so sorry to hear about the struggles and losses you have experienced on your journey to expand your family. It takes a great deal of courage and strength to keep pushing forward in the face of such challenges, and I admire you for your perseverance. It's heartwarming to hear that you have two beautiful children who bring joy to your life, and I hope they continue to be a source of love and comfort for you. It's also wonderful that you have found a form of birth control that works for you and gives you peace of mind. Remember to take care of yourself both physically and emotionally during this time, and know that you are not alone. Sending positive thoughts and wishes your way.