Rant :'(

[Sarah10]

Hi just wanted abit of a ramble. The past few days i've been feeling so poorly, exhausted and full of aches and pains, and my morning sickness has come back really bad. Im finding it really difficult walking my dog twice a day, finding it difficult cleaning the whole house, i just don't know what to do. Im just so tired all the time. Im getting more and more down each day about the weight im banging on, i feel so fat, nothing fits me anymore, i've no money etc. I really want to start college but the course starts in August and that is when i am due, i'm still waiting for an interview letter or something from the college.

Does anybody get like this? Before becoming pregnant i'd suffered with an eating disorder/depression (dont like calling it that but i was constantly wondering how to end my life) Id been bullied at school which is why i never went to college after. Im sick of being at home all day doing the same routine - shower, walk the dog, clean the house, watch tv/computer, then walk the dog, have my tea etc. I know my routine will be different when jayden's here but how will i have time to walk the dog and clean the place. I really want to get a good job, be a veterinary nurse which is why i need to start college.

So you have all probably not made it this far im such a moaning fat cow, i salute you if you did

 

[BunnyFace]

first of all -
and you're not fat, you're pregnant
I can totally sympathize with you. before i was pregnant i suffered from depression and eating disorders, was suicidal and now i've been diagnosed with agoraphobia due to my abusive ex who just so happens to be my babys father so you are def not alone with feeling down!
There is no reason why you can't go to college! You might want to postpone it a bit but you can do whatever you want to do and don't think otherwise!
Have you thought about mixing up your day, maybe doing something totally different or just pamper yourself, get your hair done all nice or something? treat yourself? you deserve it!
I hope you feel better soon!

 

[rainbows_x]

Hun, don't be so hard on yourself! You're not fat, you're having a baby and that's a wonderful thing.
I know what you mean about feeling down though, I had bad anxiety & slight depression before getting pregnant, I did have some counselling though which definatley helped and I haven't had a panic attack in ages.
Maybe invite some friends/family over for a chat? Or meet them in town and go shopping with them? I know that definitley cheers me up.
Just think though hun, your little one will be here soon, and you will soon forget about the bad things and focus on the good.

 

[Sarah10]

Thankyou both Just feeling under the weather i think, sick of having no money and stuff and everything is upto me, ie clean the house when o.h dont even work, and taking the dog out, i can see me being in labour and i'l still be the one running round doing the hoovering.

 

[rainbows_x]

I know what you mean, I am not working atm and money is tight. OH goes to work and I'm stuck inside with nothing to do but clean, then he comes home and messes it up!