Realizing I'm going to be a single Mom - Long story, sorry

[Bebe1]

Today is the first day visiting this section, and I have to admit, I'm seriously upset.

I've been in denial about what I need to do for my child. Most of the time, the Father wants to marry me, be all he can be, whatever. He's looking forward to being a father, and I've tried to focus on that.

Unfortunately, he also can't keep away from alcohol, which in turn puts me in danger physically and emotionally. Now it is my baby I am worried about. He's already gotten "physical" and he knows I'm pregnant. I don't know why I'm sugar-coating this. I need to admit it. He's extremely violent.

I'm scared. I'm embarrassed. I'm SAD. For everyone involved. Including him. He would be an amazing father, if he could quit drinking. But I don't believe he can. He lasts about a month.

My mind is so confused. It is a roller coaster. It's hard to say this, but I haven't been as excited about my new little one as I think I should be, because I'm so worried about other things. My only special time is at night, when I talk to him/her. I always end it with "Mommy loves you, and Daddy loves you", and then I cry to sleep. (I moved out when I found out I was pregnant, for safety reasons).

I really need to talk to someone. I've done the counselor thing, and my family has their own problems they are working on. I think I just need to know that there are other women out there with less than ideal situations, and I'd love to discuss the whole story, get some insight.

Best wishes to all of you.

 

[scottishgal89]

I have been in a similar situation.
I'm here just now if you want to pm me?
I'm happy to talk anytime and will help you anyway I can.
By the sounds of it though, you need to keep yourself and your baby away from that man.
He's a danger to you both and it doesn't take long to cause serious injury, if not worse.
Thinking of you
I know how you feel and it's just awful.
But trust me, being a single mummy is not as scary as you think it's going to be.
The pregnancy is the worst and feeling alone during it.
When your LO is here, it will be amazing.
You have them all to yourself.
We are all here to help you every step.
The girls in here are fab! xxx