i know how you feel, ive just became a single mummy with my 3 girls and 1 on the way for the same reason as you, everyone came before us and i got sick of it put up with it for 2 years and just had enough....its not an easy desicion to make and im sorry your going through this, wish i had more constructive advice to give you but i only left my OH about an hour ago and my heads all over the place just now....sorry xx