Right here goes.....

[tinkabells]

Ok where to start....

Well ya all know FOB has been intouch, well he saw hollie on xmas eve, we had a veyr long chat, his gonna be leaving her, well i've seen him a few times since then, talking everyday.

He came over mine on new years eve and we spent it together, and im not dumb i knew i'd end up sleeping with him, but made him wear a condom!!!!
He went home next afternoon, but then came back in eve bought us chinese, we just sat there talking and watching shit tv!!!

His gonna be leaving her, but he needs to sort out the bank accounts and he thinks she's gonna try and make him chose over his daughter with her

I said i wont wait around for him, he then needs to be on his own, he cant jump straight back with me!!!

His got the dna test on tueaday 5th Jan, so tomorrow which im sooooooooooooooo nervous about, i keep having dreams, that hollie is his but she's not mine, i no his the dad, but i keep getting so nervous, so to cheer me up my mates gonna come over and do me hair!!

I also heard from council about my housing benefits they have finally sorted that out, im not like £400 or so in credit and i dont need to pay my rent until november time!!!!

FOB is also gonna be doing my carpets, his ordered my front room and then put down my wood flooring in hallway and my bedroom!!!

But i am thinking with my head and not my heart, i can get hurt and im preparing myself for it, but just incase it doesnt ya.

When been spending time with him it has been so nice and his so good with hollie, everytime he picks her up and plays with her or talks to her, i cant help but smile and i wanna cry!!!

Right well i think thats it, there's prob some i've left out, but i cant remember at the moment as i have a very vocal hollie today!!!

xxx

 

[lou_w34]

If your happy, then thats all that matters. And its good that your going into this with your head not your heart. That way (not saying it will) if it does go wrong, or not how you expected you wont get as hurt... hopefully!

But at least he's good with hollie, and she has a chance to know her dad now which is really good!

And dont worry about the dna, though it is strange you dreaming she isnt yours lol, but at least you have new hair to look forward too!!!

xxx

 

[tinkabells]

I know the dna dreams are freaking me out big time!!!

Yeah but i am going into this with reservations, only a couple of ppl know about me and him, cos i dont wanna tell to many and for them to say i told ya so!!!
xxx

 

[lou_w34]

Yeah i hate it when people say that! But if you prove them right you will never have to hear it

x

 

[tinkabells]

I no exactly xxx

 

[expecting09]

Im glad things are progressing for you! Stuff what other people say, if you want to get back with him do it. It's nice for Hollie too to have her dad in her life. Good news about the housing benefit too, sounds like everything is looking up for you, wooop! (whens it my turn haha) xx

 

[tinkabells]

Oh i hope things are, i've been through hell and back like we all have, but yeah i hope it does keep getting better!!! xxx

 

[Hollys_Twinny]

Good luck I hope it works out for u x

 

[sweetlullaby]

Im glad things are finally starting to look up for you and dont worry about what other people think its your decision and your choice and you're thinking with your head which is you being sensible and cautious! Maybe itd a sign to a good start of a new year I hope the rest of the year follows on the same! Thats great about the housing benefit saves a lot of worry about paying rent etc lol xx

 

[nievesmama]

Hope it all works out hun. I agree forget what everyone else thinks, as long as you and Hollie are happy thats all that matters xx

 

[tinkerbellita]

Happy it's working for you Maybe there's hope for me too lol!

 

[teal]

I agree it's your decision - I'm glad to hear he's good with Hollie and you sound like you're handling everything well - especially with using your head and not your heart xx

 

[tinkabells]

Thank you all
Well had a mini break down earlier, with him!!!
Basically, my period is coming im hormonal etc, and he didnt answer a question so i ranted at him and called him his nickname c*nt, so he tried calling me 5 times wouldnt answer, so he said he was sorry for making me moody and will call again later and can he come to the clinic with me tomorrow to get hollie weighed, to which i've ignored him!!!
So im not waiting for ballyk to start on plus 1 channel and then big bro lol xxx

 

[sweetlullaby]

good for you! your showing him your serious about messing up etc youre in control!

 

[Ash_P]

Just got reading ur thread hun. So glad ur getting abit of head way and it seems that U are the one in control now, which is the way it should be. I think as long as u maintain to be the one in the driving seat, then there is less chance of u getting hurt.
U call the shots, and let him do the running. Its about time that he ran after u and proved himself to both u and hollie.
Dont worry about the DNA test dreams, its just cause u know its coming up and ur thinking about it, All will be fine.
U`ve been doing a great job with her up until now, and ul continue whether hes there or not. But Im glad he is started to show an interest in her, she deserves nothing less.

Keep me updated hun xxx

 

[tinkabells]

Well he was supposed to have dna test today, but it got cancelled, til friday now!!!
Grrrrrrr, but he came over this morning, and we went to tesco's to get out of flat and he asked to push pram, so let him of course, gives me a break lol
then came back and made us lunch!!!
He kept saying he was sorry for yesterday, even thought it was me who was the moody arse, but he said he would make it upto me?! and he never wants to upset me every again, and wants to take me and hollie to south of france in march when it gets warmer?!
But will see if any of this happens!!! I dont take much in xxx