rollercoaster feelings

[klouise1993]

Hiya not been on this for a while as things have been going crazy!!
But today has hit me like a tonne of bricks!
Well lately things have been going brilliantly both me and my chap have both got a new job on really good money! And we are moving to a brand new house
Well I had my hospital appointment about 2-3 weeks ago and had to have some blood work done and be booked in for an invasive scan done to be tested for polycystic ovaries and German measles which the scan I'm s******g myself with but the gyno said he will put me on clomid if I've got any of them so I suppose that's good news!
Today (3rd September) has been hard as today would be the day my little angel would of been due :'( everyone knows what today is my chaps sister has made me feel even worse as she hasn't stopped going on about that her baby is due any minute that the baby is in the right position, the midwife sais this, that and the other etc, I don't want to say basically to stop as she just has a go at me if I say something like it upsets me, it has got me seriously upset even though she knows what today is. I feel like I've hit rock bottom again I feel sick, I feel like screaming and curling up in a ball what's wrong with me!!! :'(

 

[too_scared]

Sending you millions of

 

[NorthStar]

Your SIL is a bitch no other way to say it.

I'm avoiding a work night out this week as people from my work won't stop the pregnancy/baby chit chat to me either, even though they know I've had two losses in the last 6 months.

Crap like this happens you find out who your true friends are

 

[klouise1993]

Thank you I'm glad it's not just me that thinks this, I've been in such a good mood until all this! It's doing my f****** head in, I feel like screaming the place down! Xx

 

[NorthStar]

I've been going to the gym a lot, it helps a bit. But my workmates and friends have been fairly rubbish.

Sometimes you just have to say "Fuck people" - wine is your friend