scared and just need a friend

[kiralouise93]

okay so i dont really know where to begin im 14weeks pregnant tomorrow and now single. me and the father were amazing together i gone through alot over the year and for the first time i was happy felt like i was worth something and he proposed i moved in and things slowly went down hill he started going out more, when he was home would be on the x box it was like i was invisible to him this was in a matter of weeks after finding out i was pregnant and about 3 weeks ago i just couldnt take it i was crying every night and felt so low i went to stay with my mum for a few days only he, things got worse he has this female 'friend' right before we got together they became very close admitted feelings for each other he trid it on with her but she regected because she was scared apparently and i know it was before we got to tegther but he lied to me about it and then she tried to spilt us up said they met up to go to the gym together and that he'd lied about it i dont know if its true but basically we were always arguing about hr so he stopped speaking to her untill now when things wre at our worse he started talking to her and seeing her he insists it was as friends but he lied to be i had been asking him all week because i knew he was talking to her again and he lied for a week to my face and that was it or so i thought i then agreed to give things another go until he said what if it doesnt work out and i hurt you again i cant see the future how do i know if he have one and again i left and then i went back because he said things would change me thinking that meant not having her around because it was breaking me and wanting to spend time with me but yesterday it all became clear he still want to go out with his friends and still wants to keep her around even though it has destroyed us so i left and im not going back unless he proves things have changed. am i wrong to leave him because of this he keeps trying to blame me because i walked away but it not like i didnt have a reason. this is the opposite of how i thought things would go and im so afraid that the way he is he is never going to want me and in th long run this baby because he just wants to have fun and not grow up. im trying to stop all th hurt and stress and do what is right for me and the baby but im just scared right now hes saying he realises hes done wrong and hes sorry but hes said it before and its me that got hurt and i dont want the baby to feel all th upset and stress how many chanc di you give when theres a little one involved and you still love each other but your head is telling you enough is enough

 

[Xstwx]

Hey!
I am so sorry your going through this! I am currently 19 weeks pregnant and in almost the exact same position! Some days are better than others but you no longer have the choice of what do I want it is about whats the best option for the baby, what will keep it the safest and able to lead a happy healthy life?
If it is like this now can you imagine what it would be like when you have no sleep and money is tight and everything needs doing around the house and he just goes out?
In all honesty until he grows up I would say you are better off without him and I know it hurts and it's so damn lonely but sometimes it's for the best!
I am here if you need to talk or want to know more about my situation just PM me I am happy to listen
Stay strong Lady you got this xoxo