scared once again!

[krystal813]

Hi ladies, I needed someone to talk to so I figured this would be the best place. My husband and I have been trying to conceive for 4 years now for what would be my second child (i have a child from previous relationship who is 13). We have lost 3 in the since Jan 2010. The first two pregnancies were ectopics and the last one which was June 2011 was a miscarriage. I have every test you could imagine done and everything comes back fine and perfect with me.
Well as of Monday of this week I had a BFP test which was a surprise to me since we have been cutting back on trying because every month I'm a complete emotional wreck for the 2 week wait period (which mine sometimes turns into a 3 week wait period) and then when I get my monthly friend I go through all kinds of depression. So the last couple of months we have put it on the back burner and haven't been and dilligent with it like charting temps and I can't even really remember the exact date of my last period. So now that i'm pregnant, I'm super scared since of my previous history, plus I have been spotting off and on. Nothing like it was with my previous pregnancies but it's still there. Today though, it wasn't present. I had my first blood draw yesterday and my levels were 377. I'm kinda scared because if my calculations are correct I should be 5 weeks 1 day today and I think that number seems low. Like I said previously, my last period date could very well be wrong. I'm still waiting for the doctor to return my phone call to see what he has to say. I know I can't take my first number without having recurrent levels so I will be returning Friday morning for my second level to be done. I haven't had any pain but with my last ectopic I didn't have pain either. I'm trying to be positive but being positive just usually ends up with me being hurt again. I don't know what I should feel. I'm excited yes that I got pregnant again but scared that history is going to repeat itself. Any support anyone can give me would be greatly apperciated.

 

[robinson380]

Try to think positive I know it is easier said than done. This is your rainbow baby!!!

 

[Tournesol]

It's so hard, but you must try to think positive and tell yourself not to worry, everything will be fine this time

 

[mannymoo]

Hi Krystal. This really is a complete roller coaster ride, isn't it! I got a BFP on Sunday after a miscarriage in January and in May. I had some spotting last night and was convinced this one was over but it seemed to stop after a couple of hours. The other ladies are right - we just need to stay as positive as we can and hope for the best. After all, there is a good chance that all will be fine!
Also, it really doesn't matter how high or low your numbers are but rather if they are doubling so fingers crossed tomorrow brings good news for you. I have blood take on Monday which was on 47 (that was 11DPO) and then on Wednesday it was 167 (13DPO) so I'm happy mine are doubling but that was before the spotting. Please let us know how you get on tomorrow.

Anyone have any tips for relaxation???

Lots of luck to all you ladies who are newly pregnant after a loss. xx