Second Loss at Ten Weeks

[kcmb0886]

I heard our baby's heartbeat on home Doppler four days ago. I'd seen it on ultrasound. All seemed to be well, and baby was growing well. But then I tried again multiple times to find the heartbeat without success. So my doctor's office got me in immediately. Still no heartbeat on their Doppler. So then they got me in for an ultrasound and confirmed the baby's heart stopped beating three days ago by gestational age. This is my second loss. My first one was in January at 4 weeks. I'm heartbroken. I don't know how I will be able to function for awhile. I know I need to. But I don't want to go back to square one of charting my temperatures, or taking whole cloves of garlic on a daily basis, just for this to happen again. I don't want to be excited and then be crushed again. I don't want my son to be excited to have a little brother or sister and then suddenly he isn't having one. I don't want to have to keep missing work to have more prenatal appointments if I do become pregnant again and then it's just all for naught.

 

[aalam9199]

I am so sorry for your loss. It's especially hard when you have to go back to trying again. Give yourself time. Hugs to you.

 

[kcmb0886]

Thank you. I had my D&C last night and my doctor took a lot of time to sit with us and talk before the surgery. He told me that when I go back in two weeks, he'll get me started with some basic testing to determine if there is something easily treatable that caused my two miscarriages. He seemed to be very optimistic that things will be better next time. I really hope he's right.

 

[Classic Girl]

I'm so incredibly sorry. One loss is hard but 2 concurrent ones are harder. Plus you hear that after seeing the heartbeat, you can relax. Hope you can find some comfort in this time

 

[karoolia]

I'm so sorry. That must be so difficult. I really hope your doctor can figure out what is going on and find a treatment.

 

[Wobbles]

So sorry sounds like you need a little time lovely and I hope you have the comfort you need at home xx

 

[kcmb0886]

Thank you all. I just want time to speed up. I've never wanted my AF to show up more than I do right now. I'll feel better when we can try again, but that could be the middle of September at this rate and it feels so far away. Try as I might, I can't lift myself up to focus on other things to pass the time and all I can do is obsess over what might have gone wrong and when we can try again. I have my follow up with my doctor next week and even that seems so far away.

 

[Hb.x]

I'm so sorry I hope AF shows up soon x