Natalie,
I feel awful for telling you I didn't do the D&E I just could not, but it was against my doctor's advice and I could have died the way I did it. At the time I didn't care if I died now I see I would have killed my 3 boys if i died and they would not have me their mother
I am sorry if me telling you my story and telling you how I felt about the D&E hurt you, I am so sorry. Please you did nothing wrong it was a choice yes and now maybe you regret it but you can't change it but you can move on, your precious angel knows you love her, I feel so guilty for telling you about my story. Just know I could have died, my doctor didn't even come to the hospital for me
he was so mad at me. I also had the sticks (Seaweed) up me , went into labor and refused to go, do you know what I put my husband through cause I did this????
he saw his daughter dead holding a cord while me his wife gave out screams of horror. I was so broken Natalie and for a long time I wished I got the D&E as my Sister In Law did as she seems fine, and I am still struggling every single day and I have a grave to go to every single day
. Please I beg you from my heart don't put this guilt and regret on yourself, you did what they told you to do, don't regret it move past this and know she is safe in God's arm. I will never speak of my D&E again, I feel like I have hurt you or others that had one, I don't mean it that way I just always meant it was not for me, but I could have bled to death and then what, my kids would be totally lost. My poor husband I put him through hell just for my wants not his
I love you and I am sorry XOXO