SweetPea3200
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My LO is 11 weeks old today, 5 weeks corrected age. We were in the hospital for 2 weeks post birth just for him to gain some weight and maintain his body temp.
My labour was all natural and totally easy until the last two hours of it. It was exactly what I wanted but I found myself a little traumatized by the pain and embarrassed by how I handled it. When I think back on it now it makes me what to have an epidural for the next birth.
Anyways now that the back story is known, I can talk about how I feel now. I love my boy so much it's ridiculous. I also love my husband a crazy amount. Unfortunately I find myself getting crazy frustrated with both of them. When my son cries for an unknown reason and I can't settle him right away or when he gets frustrated with my slow flow, I get pretty intense feelings of rage. My jaw is getting sore from clenching it all the time and I'm often worried that I will hold my son too tightly or that my frustration may eventually get bad enough that I shake him. Of course when the rage passes I get awful feelings of guilt. I'm wondering if this is at all normal or if I should be speaking with a doctor? Doesn't seem like normal symptoms of PND, I'm really worried and overwhelmed by all of these feelings. Any help or advice would be lovely
My labour was all natural and totally easy until the last two hours of it. It was exactly what I wanted but I found myself a little traumatized by the pain and embarrassed by how I handled it. When I think back on it now it makes me what to have an epidural for the next birth.
Anyways now that the back story is known, I can talk about how I feel now. I love my boy so much it's ridiculous. I also love my husband a crazy amount. Unfortunately I find myself getting crazy frustrated with both of them. When my son cries for an unknown reason and I can't settle him right away or when he gets frustrated with my slow flow, I get pretty intense feelings of rage. My jaw is getting sore from clenching it all the time and I'm often worried that I will hold my son too tightly or that my frustration may eventually get bad enough that I shake him. Of course when the rage passes I get awful feelings of guilt. I'm wondering if this is at all normal or if I should be speaking with a doctor? Doesn't seem like normal symptoms of PND, I'm really worried and overwhelmed by all of these feelings. Any help or advice would be lovely