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Sometimes I wish I had a tiny camera. A camera that had zoom great enough it could clearly see a sperm. I wish it was small enough to be attached to the uterine lining and once AF came it would go with it. I just wish I had something that can clearly see what exactly is going on in my empty uterus. I wish I could see exactly when I ovulated and from what ovary. I wish I could see the sperm and how they moved and how long they lived. I wish I could see for sure how my timing went as far as BD. If I could see how my uterus functioned for one whole month and coincide with what I saw on the inside and match up what I saw on outside(such as BBT, OPK,SHOW, ect) DH and I could time BD a lot better.....sigh....unfortunately there is no such thing as that tiny camera....we have no choice but to go on pure guess work and praying all of our external signs are lining up perfectly with what's truly happening on the inside....anyone else with me? Anyone else at all feel the way I feel? I feel hopeless, feel like I have no purpose here on Earth, I feel worthless. With no luck being able to conceive yet after trying since 12/2015 what's the purpose of living(other than living for DH)? It's my heart's desire to be a mother someday. I pray to God on a tearful daily basis for a child that was created by my egg and DH sperm. I pray that God answers my heart's desire. My DH eyes light up with a glow when he is with our niece and nephew. He is such a big kid at heart and will be a great father and wonderful dad. As for me... everyone tells me I'll be a great mother and that when it comes to holding an infant it comes so natural to me. Anyone else with me? Anyone else in the same boat as me? Please don't R&R...any responses are greatly appreciated
