Single parent again??? :(

[ProudMummyx]

This is just a rant thread, just need too get it off my chest

So me and FOB have been going through a bad patch more or less since LO was born, i have a child from a previous relationship so ive been a single parent before but this time is so much different!

im so annoyed because we planned this baby and he has just turned into a total K**b! thing is if we argue on the weekend he will storm off, go drinking and i wont see him all weekend, yet he will still text me trying too solve our relationship over texts! and then as soon as sunday hits he's saying sorry and can't believe what a d**k he has been and saying he can't live with me, and its happened so many times.

he's done a few other things which have upset me.

arranging too meet up with someone when we were arguing and then lying about it

messaging my sisters best friend and asking her too meet with him and telling her he'd always fancied her when we had split the day before ( whilst he was still texting and ringing me too give him another chance)

now i know both these things he has done when we have been arguing, but it has been over stuff that he has done too upset me and too me he's trying too put it right, but yet doing those things.

i just feel i need some stability in mine and my kids life, not him leaving me upset and uping and going when he cant deal with the disagreement etc & i could get over him meeting a stranger, but when he spoke to my sisters friend it meant all my family know about it and people i know ( as she was also close to the family)

He says he only spoke too her because he knew it would get back to me and because he wanted to get too me, but it just sounds like a LOAD OF CRAP to me.

thing is after all this i still love him and it makes it hard when hes telling me he misses me, loves me and cant live without me etc etc.

i dont know what too do anymore. it would be so much easier too stand my ground if he wasnt asking me back :\

 

[BadassMom]

I'm sorry you have to go through that. Back and forth relationships are hell (I'm going through one now with my FOB). Your head trying to talk sense to you but your heart wanting to make it work. It's so hard to trust anything a guy says after he's lied to you (I've caught my FOB in a few lies also). There's always that little voice in the back of your head wondering if what he's saying now is a lie. Only you can decide when enough is enough which is so hard when your mind and heart are at war with each other leaving you totally confused. Stay strong!