So scared

[Tasha]

I dont even know what I want to write, just dont want to feel alone with these feelings any more.

I joined some October bump buddies threads, yet cant bring myself to read or write in them. I have taken loads of pregnancy tests but cant let myself believe them. I need to go to the doctors as I need to get a referral to the consultant as I need medication during pregnancy but I cant do it, I usually start bleeding (had 4 miscarriages)just before the doctors appointment or days after so feel like booking it is booking our fate. just waiting for our 5th miscarriage and 6th loss to begin.

 

[Rumpskin]

Sweetheart, if there is any chance that you can save this pregnancy, please do it - make that appointment and be brave.

Please do it darling xxx

 

[Janidog]

You need to go to the doctors to get your medication, it may also break your cycle.

When I had my miscarriage at 5 weeks I thought I would never buy anything for my baby until at least 20 weeks, but hubby made me order our pushchair at 5 weeks to break that worry

 

[Smiler13]

Tasha, totally understand how you're feeling, I am pregnant after four miscarriages and the first few weeks were really hard. There are no guarantees, but you have been brave to try again - see it through, go to your doctor and hang on in there.

I found it helpful to use digital tests to see if my hormones were increasing, and to have a scan at 6 weeks (my local EPU offered this to women with a history of recurrent miscarriage).

 

[hayley x]

You must be sooo worried which is understandable but pleaseee see your doctor so you can get your medication - this is a new pregnancy - a brand new little life xxx

 

[Glitz]

I agree with everyone else hun i know its so hard but please get yourself off to the docs and get some medication

Here if you ever need a chat x x x

 

[Lawa]

Tasha same for me I have never made it passed 5-6 weeks and I right in the middle of that now

 

[im_mi]

sweetie you must get to the doctors soon, i understand your fears i really really do but like its been said, this is a brand new little life hun theres every chance it will be okay xxxx

here for you, never think you cant vent here xxx

 

[Tasha]

Thanks for your reply girls. I am crying at the moment. I just dont feel like anyone gets it. And no one in RL apart from my husband (probably would of not told him but the lack of af and dtd might of given it away ) knows. I am going to be brave and ring.

Just so you know my meds are to protect me, not the pregnancy, well the aspirin is for the pregnancy but I can pick that up any where, and the clexane is to lower my risks of clots.

 

[Tasha]

Oh and to add my husband knows but doesnt get why I am anxious.

 

[im_mi]

im sorry you dont feel understood honey. I dont think people can truly *get it* until they have suffered from losses. I know you will find the courage to go to the doctors because you have been strong enough to get through all that you have you will be okay and you will get through this too. And in 8 months you'll have a screaming baby in your arms xxx

 

[Tasha]

Thanks Im, I got my husband to ring in the end as I knew if left to me I would not do it, so Wednesday at 10.20

 

[Jody R]

Lots of hugs Tash, I think I understand.

I felt the same about Thusdays when I was pregnant, we always got bad news or bad things happened on Thursdays. I even made them change all my appointments so I was never at the doctors or hospital on a Thursday, I was convinced if I had to go on a Thursday something bad would happen to Joseph.

You know we are all on your side in this. ((((hugs)))) xxxx

 

[biteable]

well done for letting your hubby make the call,im pretty much the same i didnt want to tell the docs as just after my booking in appointment last time i mc,ive wanted an early scan for weeks but was to afraid to try and get 1 as i dont want to be told the same devastating results again but my bf has paid for one for me for valentines day and its tmw,im scared but needto know more,we are all here for you hun xx

 

[im_mi]

thats great hun,im really proud of you for asking him to do that for you xxx

 

[meldmac]

Sending you loads of hon. I'm sending tons of positive vibes your way.

 

[Tasha]

Sending you loads of hon. I'm sending tons of positive vibes your way.

Thank you hun, but it is too late for them. I started miscarrying last night.

 

[meldmac]

Oh Tasha I'm so very sorry to hear this. You are in my thoughts and prayers. If you need to talk feel free to message me.

 

[lisa_33]

tasha im so sorry hunny, i wish i could think of something to help but i know theres not xxxx

 

[Jody R]

(((((((Tash))))))) I am so sorry, you know I'm here if you need me xxxxx