So tired of this....

[beegray]

My SIL's one best friend (younger then me) fell pregnant last year (accident). Now she has a little boy, and almost everyday my SIL and her other best friend talks about their friend and her baby (they get a lift into work and home everyday with me). I don't really enjoy the talks they both know about my desperation and mine and DH's troubles with ttc. Then over this weekend DH and I went away on an Alpha Camp (we are youth leaders in our church and are doing youth alpha) and there was a woman there with a baby boy and it just broke my heart and I just couldn't get away. Then this morning my SIL and her friend were talking about their friend and her baby again and I almost broke down. My DH said i must talk to them but i feel like a bitter old cow for it and I know they won't listen to me. Seriously I'm so tired of feeling like this!!!!! Sometimes I just wish the desperation for a baby would just go away and I can live my life in peace! Then on top of that my DH informed me that i wouldn't be able to do the clomid this cycle because our medical won't cover it and because we didn't budget it in we can't afford it.

 

[tamithomas]

I'm soo sorry to hear. If it makes you feel better, pretty much everyone on these forums can relate in one form or another. It's so hard to be around those who don't grasp the concept of infertility. For example, my SIL whom has her sister has had 3 MC and my DH & I have been trying for 3 years and she's aware, still insist on posting 3-4 pictures a day on facebook since he was born. Kid is only a month old and has 50 somewhat pictures in one ablum named after him. I feel betrayed every time I used to see those pictures (thankfully in the power vested in the unfollow I was able to stop that spam of newsfeed) because it feels as though she is very inconsiderate even if she knows 2 people who personally deal with infertility. I mean yes she has every right to post what she wants, don't get me wrong but there's being aloud to show off but then there's showing off with a snobbish attitude about it. Weather she does it on purpose or not I have no clue but when I went to go visit them at the hospital to meet the boy which took everything in my power just to do that, she had the nerve to slip in underhanded comments like when she was scratching a scratcher it was "oh wow that feels soo weird to my stomach" like b**** have some curtesy when a TTCer is in the room. Sorry for doing a mini rant, just wanted to say that a lot of us can relate and we are here for you. xox

 

[beegray]

I'm soo sorry to hear. If it makes you feel better, pretty much everyone on these forums can relate in one form or another. It's so hard to be around those who don't grasp the concept of infertility. For example, my SIL whom has her sister has had 3 MC and my DH & I have been trying for 3 years and she's aware, still insist on posting 3-4 pictures a day on facebook since he was born. Kid is only a month old and has 50 somewhat pictures in one ablum named after him. I feel betrayed every time I used to see those pictures (thankfully in the power vested in the unfollow I was able to stop that spam of newsfeed) because it feels as though she is very inconsiderate even if she knows 2 people who personally deal with infertility. I mean yes she has every right to post what she wants, don't get me wrong but there's being aloud to show off but then there's showing off with a snobbish attitude about it. Weather she does it on purpose or not I have no clue but when I went to go visit them at the hospital to meet the boy which took everything in my power just to do that, she had the nerve to slip in underhanded comments like when she was scratching a scratcher it was "oh wow that feels soo weird to my stomach" like b**** have some curtesy when a TTCer is in the room. Sorry for doing a mini rant, just wanted to say that a lot of us can relate and we are here for you. xox

Don't you just hate the feelings??? Just wish they would disappear and you could feel normal again??? When my sister feel pregnant with 3rd, i was ttc by this time and had already lost my baby, I was heartbroken, tho no one knew we ttc. Eventually when Jarred came i had kinda calmed down. Though she's not the vindictive type and isn't really on fb. I think it hurts more when stuff like that comes from people who KNOW we are ttc and not just that LTTTC! Stupid people!!!!Lol feel like a three year old with my mini rant!!!!