Sorry , need to vent :(

[Love My Bubs]

I'm so over FOB , it's just constant mind games & hurting me ! No matter how hard I try to please , nothing is ever good enough & I'm just a joke to him , his family & friends . They think it's all great fun to play with my head & use me . I lost my baby last year to him & they all put me through hell while I was pregnant . Then I stupidly took him back & he proposes & we get pregnant again . First sign of things getting worrying with bub & he runs . He promised he would keep in touch as this is my first bub after my stillbirth . Now I have someone number messaging me saying it's him & it's believable but he won't answer the phone , keeps hanging up or turning it off . I'm only 20wks & Iv been to emergency 3 times with bleeding & he still thinks it's all a game to mess with my feelings . My feelings for him are so strong & that's making it harder to push him away . I just dont know how to cope anymore ! Sometimes I just want to run away & leave everything behind so the pain will stop

 

[davidjoemum]

well done hun you be better off without him !!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Dezireey]

You need to look after yourself and your bub. What he does or says now is irrelevant. He has caused you so much stress that he could be doing you no favours with your health and your baby's health. Be kind to yourself, it sounds like you need it. Surround yourself only with people who are kind to you and try really hard to find things that make you happy no matter how trivial. I know its a cliche, but time really is the best healer when it comes to relationships and I have learnt over the years that the best way to help yourself and your little one now in a situation like this is to cut contact and /or make sure he can't contact you and upset you (at least until your baby is born). I don't think you are strong enough yet to deal with him properly.

Hugs for you hunny xxx

 

[Love My Bubs]

Iv tried to be strong but my love for him makes it hard . Last night we actually got to speak & his mate spoke to me & said that FOB loves me & our bubs but needs space . But I can't I freak out & get paranoid & just want to talk to him . FOB told me he would call this morning to sort things out instead I had his mates answering my calls saying he was asleep & now his phone has been off for hours . I'm over games but it never stops me trying for him

 

[Dezireey]

I called and texted my FOB a LOT when we first broke up. If it was a normal break up I would never have contacted the man who broke up with me as I see myself as having more pride, but in this case a baby is involved and I couldnt understand why he would leave us both as he wouldnt have split up with me if I were not pregnant. However, after months of arguing, me threatening him, then back to us missing each other etc, etc I just gave up on him. I still love him despite what he has done but I cannot, ever forgive him. The moment I stopped all contact and got on with my life he started to get back in touch. We are on friendly terms now and he is just starting to talk ( albeit briefly) about the baby e.g try and eat a curry to help? as I am overdue. Before, he ignored ANY communication relating to his son. You must give him all the space he wants even if you feel desperate to talk to him, dont call him. He may initiate contact, he may not, dont have your hopes up about anything. You will feel better as time goes by and it will hurt but you just cant force him to do something he doesnt want to do. It hurts bad but the further you push the more they run away.

 

[Love My Bubs]

U sound so much like me lol , when he left me at 12wks I had no way possible to contact him so eventually after a lot of days of tears I started to feel better , I stupidly re-activated my Facebook which I deleted after losing bub only cause I heard FOB had . So we talked for 3days until he blocked me . Then a week later he emailed for a week then stopped everything for weeks . I started to feel better & started hanging out wit a friend , FOB heard bout this & started to email again , so I shut myself away just to speak to him . He then sent me his number this week & all has been good until he took a day off work to spend with mates & can't even take an hour off for an US which I made in the suburb his in so he could come . Frustrating ! I would like to b happy but I lost a lot of friends to this same stuff happening last year , I stop talking to them all so I don't ruin any chances with him . That's y I worry now to stop contacting him incase he thinks I don't want him anymore :-/ but I'm thinking his changed his number again , I keep telling myself I should leave my phone somewhere & not touch it , not try calling or texting a million times to give him space but then I think I don't wanna miss a call or text from him . Stupid eh