waiting2012
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I have a wonderful thread that was started on the TWW board and have made wonderful friends after starting it..3 of the girls are pg and 2 are awaiting hopefully their 
s and one is undecided whether she is going to NTNP or continue using protection until around April. I had a nice faint myself in December; positive blood test and even had shown rising hcg levels but I decided to wait for my actual ob/gyn appointment before going and paying for more blood tests at the regular doctor's office...I had my appointment on the 15th--their urine test was negative and they drew blood as well and I will find out tomorrow what the results are. I was told it may have been a fluke, cysts or possibly early menopause. I'm 37 years old and will be 38 in March. I'm Godsmacked by all that has happened over the course of a week. I should have been 11 weeks this past wednesday and now nothing. NOTHING. I got told he can give me something to see if I ovulate or have a period but he wanted to wait for the bloodtest results. I'm dumbfounded by this all. I feel like my aging body has let me down. I guess it will never happen again for us. I'm sorry if this is not the right place to vent this and I have vented on my own TWW thread but I feel so much envy right now and don't want the girls to know how much my heart breaks right now--I don't want my feelings to cloud their happiness. They sit and wait to hear good news for me but in my heart I know it will not come.
My life of LTTC in a nutshell... 10 years of TTC with 5 m/c's..
2011 alone: June (Father's Day) m/c at 6 weeks; September m/c at 4.5 weeks; November (3 days after finding out on our 11th wedding anniversary) m/c at 4-5 weeks.
CD 80 with no bleeding, no real cramping other than twinges and pelvic-muscle type pulling, bloating, fatigue, dizziness (slight moments of), nausea (slight periods of--not everday and not at the same time each day)...
Just so tired of waiting but finally I realize it will never ever happen for us again. I hope to find the silverlining that there is because I can't see it...
s and one is undecided whether she is going to NTNP or continue using protection until around April. I had a nice faint myself in December; positive blood test and even had shown rising hcg levels but I decided to wait for my actual ob/gyn appointment before going and paying for more blood tests at the regular doctor's office...I had my appointment on the 15th--their urine test was negative and they drew blood as well and I will find out tomorrow what the results are. I was told it may have been a fluke, cysts or possibly early menopause. I'm 37 years old and will be 38 in March. I'm Godsmacked by all that has happened over the course of a week. I should have been 11 weeks this past wednesday and now nothing. NOTHING. I got told he can give me something to see if I ovulate or have a period but he wanted to wait for the bloodtest results. I'm dumbfounded by this all. I feel like my aging body has let me down. I guess it will never happen again for us. I'm sorry if this is not the right place to vent this and I have vented on my own TWW thread but I feel so much envy right now and don't want the girls to know how much my heart breaks right now--I don't want my feelings to cloud their happiness. They sit and wait to hear good news for me but in my heart I know it will not come. My life of LTTC in a nutshell... 10 years of TTC with 5 m/c's..
2011 alone: June (Father's Day) m/c at 6 weeks; September m/c at 4.5 weeks; November (3 days after finding out on our 11th wedding anniversary) m/c at 4-5 weeks.
CD 80 with no bleeding, no real cramping other than twinges and pelvic-muscle type pulling, bloating, fatigue, dizziness (slight moments of), nausea (slight periods of--not everday and not at the same time each day)...
Just so tired of waiting but finally I realize it will never ever happen for us again. I hope to find the silverlining that there is because I can't see it...
