Struggling Today... Don't know where to post

[LilFlower08]

I know this forum isn't for this sort of thing, but i guess the girls on here chat about pretty much everything and like to get it all out in the open so hence my call for a lil support.

Today i'm really finding it hard to stay upbeat.
Let me explain abit.

On the 2nd January 2008, I lost my best friend. We grew up together and she lived down the road from me. Our families are very close and i call her parent my second parents because i have always felt that connected to their family and they always make me aware of how there for me they are.

She died of Pulmonary Hypotension which is a disease of the heart and lungs, and i was with her when she died.

It would have been her 20th Birthday on Weds and i was fine all day and yesterday as i have been kept busy fundraising for her charity PHA-UK. But today back at work boring and mundane i think its kind of caught up with me and i feel all tearful and heart ached again.

Sorry for the moan and groan. I should be being positive since my new house this month but i guess some things never heal.
xx

 

[Plumfairy]

Gosh I cant imagine how it must feel to lose somebody so dear to you. All I can say is keep strong. Sending you big hugs and also lots of strength x x x x x

 

[Laura--x]

Aww hun

Im really sorry to hear about your friend. Death is always a hard subject to come to terms with. I know everyone has different beliefs, but when my brother died, i felt ( and still do) if i just think about him, and think how hes around me and looking after me, it makes me feel so much better. I know he would want me to be happy, and i know your friend is the same for you

PM me if you ever need a chat x

 

[LilFlower08]

Thanks Hunnies... Its so diorientating how it comes on so unexpected, I feel like utter rubbish for no reasons on the weirdest of days and its hard... xx

 

[Plumfairy]

Have you spoken to anybody about it? Like a counselor or something? It could be helpfull for you x x x

 

[LilFlower08]

Yes i had a breakdown in March and only then did i get a bit of counselling which was more for my mums peace of mind, but that did help. Instead of being in constant self destruct mode like before i only have a the odd day of feeling a lil lonely...
I was counselled for berievment after a miscarriage in 08 Feb 07 Leanne's death in o2 Jan 08 and My grandad on the 02 march 08.... So yeah i did find it helpful but abit impersonal really.

xx

 

[Beth_18]

aww hun im soo sorry to here that. i know the pain never goes away but it gets easya i promise!i know as my antie was murderd 7years ago and not a day goes passed with out thinking about her but it gets easyer with time and support form those around you x x x x x x x x

 

[nikky0907]

Thats terrible,I'm so sorry...

 

[jessicajane]

so sorry 2 hear tht darlin, stay strong xxx

 

[dizzy65]

awe i am so sorry

 

[bootyb]

aww hun so sorry to hear that... i know how hard it is to come to terms wit wen someone so close dies. i have lost an uncle an aunt nd my nan in the space of four months. here is you need to tlk jes pm me

 

[Sophie1205]

Aww hun sorry to hear that. xx
I lost a very close friend a few years ago and I know it is very hard. Try and remember all the good times you had with them and what you liked about them. When I get upset over my friend who I lost I think about the fun times I had with him and how funny he was at it makes me smile. But I know how hard that can be when your feeling so much heartache.

Here to talk if you ever want to
xxx