Struggling with Postpartum depression maybe?

[born2Bmama]

Hi everyone,

I am finding myself in a strange situation and wonder if anyone out there has had anything similar happen to them and can offer some advice.

I'll start with my story. My daughter Mikayla was stillborn at 24 weeks almost four months ago in late November. I hadn't felt her move and ultrasound confirmed her heart had stopped. I delivered her the same day we found out she was gone.

Anyway, for the first couple months I felt pretty numb to it all, but was managing alright with support of friends, family and a support group. Then all of a sudden around the three month anniversary I started to feel very depressed had no interest in anything, tired all the time. I was weeping for the first time in months. I figured it was because Mikayla's due date was coming up. However, this lasted about a week and then I got and started to feel alot better right away. Like really good. The best I have felt in a long time. I figured maybe it was really bad PMS made worse by my situation but just that.

But then again this past week I got really depressed again. I figured It was again because the due date had just passed and really started to feel I must have post partum depression. But then this morning I got my period again. It has been less than two weeks since I had it last. That has never happened to me before. And again I feel so much better.

I don't understand why getting my AF seems to make such an extreem difference in my mood or why I am getting them so close together. I really can't take the weeks of depression that seem to precede it. It is taking a toll on me, my kids nad my marriage. I don't even know what my doctor would do to to treat it.

Has anyone every dealt with something like this. What did you do? I would really appreciate any imput anyone might have.

Thanks and to all.

 

[krockwell]

Sorry hun, I know that I, although I haven't had even close to what experience you have... I've been feelin very depressed as my EDD comes fast approaching me..
And my period makes it almost better.
Don't know why our bodies are so odd and cruel to us.
Sorry I'm not much help.

 

[krockwell]

Sorry hun, I know that I, although I haven't had even close to what experience you have... I've been feelin very depressed as my EDD comes fast approaching me..
And my period makes it almost better.
Don't know why our bodies are so odd and cruel to us.
Sorry I'm not much help.

 

[JASMAK]

I have experienced a form of PPD, it was actually diagnosed as post-tramautic stress disorder, caused by delivery of my daughter and the events that followed. It took a long time for me to get diagnosed, and the day I finally was diagnosed and was given a drug called Zoloft, I felt an instant difference. The trouble with diagnosing it was the questions the doctors always asked. "Do you feel the world is better of without you?", "Do you have no feelings towards your child, or feel like harming your child?", "Do you cry all day and do nothing else?". Well, the answers were always, no no no. But, I knew something was wrong. I felt like I couldn't go out alone because I didn't feel like I could handle a tough situation, if it should arise. I was cranky with my husband, like bad PMS. I loved my children to bits. I am not sure when you say it comes and goes with your AF, that could be a severe case of PMS perhaps. But, I would say that if *you* think there is something different about you, then there probably is, and I would go right away. I only wish that I could go back and get help sooner, because I spent the first six months of my daughters life very sad and lonely. I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Did you ever receive any kind of grief counselling???

 

[Las78]

Hun. I have this problem every month. Before I had my babies I never suffered PMS at all then after my 1st I would get really moody and tearful, I was quite young and had PND so didn't think anything more of it. After my 2nd I was even worse and always the week before. My OH and I now know the week before everything gets blown out of proportion and I will cry at anything he says to me (after I've finished screaming at everyone that is!!!) - I am a nightmare with PMS. Exactly as you describe, the minute I start I'm fine. They do say the more hildren you have the worse it gets so they say!!