Struggling

[Ckelly79]

I had an mmc the day after my little boys first birthday 3rd July. My cycle went straight back to normal. Ovulation and af on point.
I'm feeling deflated it took 11cycles to get bfp as we were trying straight away as wanted a sibling close in age for oscar.
My heads all over the place. Everyone around me is getting pregnant.
Does anyone else have days when they feel sorry for themselves??

 

[sweetmere]

Yep. Every single day. We are on cycle 6 now with a loss in July. I have days that I feel okay like yesterday (even though I started AF) and days like today where I feel like crap. I feel lost and I feel like I've given up. I'm scared to get pregnant again because I am afraid of another loss. I don't want to lose any more babies.

You're definitely not alone. It's so hard. Especially seeing pregnancy announcements, having friends and family pregnant, especially due around the same time I would have been due.

 

[Bushmumma]

Sorry your feeling like crap ladies it's a tough journey, TTC.
I had a termination for medical reasons in early 2013 and then got a BFP in jan this yr that ended in a mmc . It was heartbreaking! I put all I could into falling pregnant and felt the stress of TTC was not helping me, my hubby, my family or most of all my body. I figured that I had the basics of O and my cycles were at 27 days... I gave up on TTC. Just gave it all up as I was feeling like I was heading towards depression and that's certainly not me.
What I done was work off the information I had and lived my life again that wasn't revolving around TTC.... DH and I became normal again (well I did) and that was a change in itself. I thought that I would not stock anymore tests, OPK or HPT's. This eliminated the urge to POAS before the nesesary time (which in my mind became when af didn't show). Each time she arrived I felt that I was at least on track and really tried being positive, it's the start of a new chance, my body is working, my emotions are intact and I'm ready when my body is.

This was how I dealt with TTC. I don't want to upset you at all ladies, all I'll say is I believe it works as does other ladies I've shared my thoughts with.
I hope you are able to pull back and relax with the hope of your BFP in the very near future it's natural to feel let down by your body when it's not doing what you want. I assure you will get results with the elimination of stress and learning to relax for your body to feel as though as a whole your ready.
Xo hope this helps darlings

 

[Ckelly79]

Thinking if u sweetmere
I'm finding it harder to focus I'm trying to not let this consume all of me
Thank u bushmama for your words x

 

[Bushmumma]

Your do welcome darlin, if I can help at all please let me know

 

[Kats816]

It is so hard, so so hard. I've been ttc for 3 years with a miscarriage in April. I have three cycles of chlomid before I get referred for IVF.
I find the whole situation very unfair and hard to deal with at times. Everywhere I look their are pregnant ladies and can anymore celebrities get pregnant.
I'm sure in the end when we have our babies this will seem like a distant memory but while you are in it it can seem like a bit of a nightmare.
Love and dust to you all

 

[Ckelly79]

So true kats816.
I'm just feeling it more this month.
Love to all x

 

[Bug222]

*hugs* hun

I can totally understand. Im feeling the same. I cry most days, feel like we keep on trying and trying for nothing. I feel like giving up but can't get my head around the finality of knowing I won't ever get my rainbow.


When I was TTC #1 I at least had the knowledge that once we hit the year point we would be able to get some testing/help... ended up conceiving on the 12th month. This time im almost at 10 months but because I have been pregnant twice in that time I can't be referred for anything until a year after the last loss.

 

[Ckelly79]

Hi bugs22
It also took me 12 cycles with Oscar then 11cycles when has loss in July.
I make it worse for myself some days because I think things like I would be 16 weeks now etc
Thinking of u all x

 

[Bug222]

Yeah the first due date is coming up next month and I had really hoped I would be pregnant by then