Stuggling today.....

[natasja32]

Hi girls,hope you are all doing ok today. Im struggling,missing my little boy so muchI feel like such a cr*p mother at the moment to my other two boys. Im constantly shouting at them and am so impatient. I feel so sad for them,as i know they are hurting too.Been snapping at hubby too,and he doesnt deserve it. Sometimes i think i didnt deserve my darling boy,thats why he was taken away from me.Havent been bk to his grave either,since we had his funeral on wednesday.... I just want to feel better,so my other two boys and hubby can be happy too.

 

[honey08]

so so sry for wot ur going thro hun xx maybe try talking bout the baby together x but i dont know x

 

[coccyx]

Be kind to yourself. You need time to grieve. People often ,quite rightly, fell angry and ask why me? Would it help to talk to your partner? Sure he is grieving too. Give yourself time, don't expect things to go back to how they were, things will always be different.
I don't know your story, but your little man is , and always will be part of your family.

 

[Aidedhoney]

Please dont blame yoursef, what happened was one of those terrible things that is outwith anyones control. It sounds corny but as time passes it does get easier. My heart goes out to you.

xx

 

[rachjim98]

One of these days I am going to figure out how to get through this screen and just Hug you up!!!

It has not been that long Natasja.. and it takes time more likely a lot of time, to even to begin to heal from this. You can not just snap back into your everyday routine and be who you were before you lost Bodhi.
You will never be that person again. In time you will find a new you and the old you will start to emerge, little by little.
Give yourself a break! One day your older boys will understand, and will be proud of how you have handled yourself.
I know I am!

 

[Las78]

Hun, so sorry. When things are on my mind and especially after my m/c I'm extremely snappy and my kids too have been at the end of the receiving line.
You have been through so much hun, it's understandable. Hormones don't help matters at all. It may be worth speaking to your GP about it hun, perhaps they may be able to suggest something to lighten the load a little.
Are you able to maybe have a few days to yourself, if thats what you want (I know I couldn't bear to be alone at first but now I prefer being alone)
Most of all hun, try not to beat yourself up. You're a loving mum and a wonderful wife I'm sure, you're doing your best, your kids and hubby know you love them. Right now you just need the time to grieve. Perhaps if and when you have a good moment take the boys aside and try and explain to them how you feel. Perhaps something like " I know I haven't been a very happy mummy and that I've been shouting at you a lot but I do love you very much, at the minute I'm really sad about Bodhi and in time it will get better but please try and be patient with me and don't forget that even if I shout at you I still love you"

It's so hard hun, I feel for you. Take good care of you right now x

 

[londongirl19]

so sorry for what u are going through. they say it helps to talk - and to cry. give yourself time. lots of love. xx