haecceity
Expecting 'surprise'/No2
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Hello,
I am currently feeling lost, lonely and very scared. About 2 weeks ago I began to get abdominal cramps which felt very much like those I get before my period starts. I was initially v worried as AF wasn't due for a while. Then just over a week ago I got real bad diarrhea (sp?) which contained both mucus and blood. I therefore just assumed that the cramps were some form of tummy bug (though secretly hoping may be pregnancy as we have been trying for a while now). I then experienced a few days constipation while the cramps and lower back pain continued, 90% of which were on my right side.
ON Saturday I was officially late (though my cycles are irregular as have mild endometriosis) so took a HPT which was a feint positive. I didn't get excited as it was v feint and also was so worried about the pains (esp because only really on one side). I took 2 more HPT yesterday and both were positive so made an appt with my GP. The minute he heard about the pains he sent me to A&E. I was there last night where they took a blood test and told me to go along to my EPU today for a scan.
I went to the EPU at lunchtime and they said they may not see anything as I'm only 5weeks. The scan did indeed show nothing, which although in my head I'd expected them to say, really shook me up. They looked at the bloods from last night and my HCG levels were 870 so they want me to go back for more blood tests tomorrow and then they will call me later in the day with the results and when they want me to come back.
The pains are still there and still only on one side so in my heart I'm already convinced its an EP but my husband is trying to stay positive and convinced it'll be in the uterus on a later scan. I'm trying to tell him I know my body but it's my first ever pregnancy and I'm a pessimist at the best of time. I just don't think I want to get my hopes up only to have them dashed.
The worst thing is the fact we've not told anyone so are trying to cope with this togther. I got v upset and was crying on the phone to my mum today but couldn't tell her why but am now wondering if I should. IT's probably quite selfish of me to tell her just so I can talk through this when all it would do is hurt and upset her unnecessarily and my husband isn't telling his parents.
I just wanted to get this off my chest to people who might understand so thank you for listening and keep your fingers crossed this pessimist gets proved wrong!
I am currently feeling lost, lonely and very scared. About 2 weeks ago I began to get abdominal cramps which felt very much like those I get before my period starts. I was initially v worried as AF wasn't due for a while. Then just over a week ago I got real bad diarrhea (sp?) which contained both mucus and blood. I therefore just assumed that the cramps were some form of tummy bug (though secretly hoping may be pregnancy as we have been trying for a while now). I then experienced a few days constipation while the cramps and lower back pain continued, 90% of which were on my right side.
ON Saturday I was officially late (though my cycles are irregular as have mild endometriosis) so took a HPT which was a feint positive. I didn't get excited as it was v feint and also was so worried about the pains (esp because only really on one side). I took 2 more HPT yesterday and both were positive so made an appt with my GP. The minute he heard about the pains he sent me to A&E. I was there last night where they took a blood test and told me to go along to my EPU today for a scan.
I went to the EPU at lunchtime and they said they may not see anything as I'm only 5weeks. The scan did indeed show nothing, which although in my head I'd expected them to say, really shook me up. They looked at the bloods from last night and my HCG levels were 870 so they want me to go back for more blood tests tomorrow and then they will call me later in the day with the results and when they want me to come back.
The pains are still there and still only on one side so in my heart I'm already convinced its an EP but my husband is trying to stay positive and convinced it'll be in the uterus on a later scan. I'm trying to tell him I know my body but it's my first ever pregnancy and I'm a pessimist at the best of time. I just don't think I want to get my hopes up only to have them dashed.
The worst thing is the fact we've not told anyone so are trying to cope with this togther. I got v upset and was crying on the phone to my mum today but couldn't tell her why but am now wondering if I should. IT's probably quite selfish of me to tell her just so I can talk through this when all it would do is hurt and upset her unnecessarily and my husband isn't telling his parents.
I just wanted to get this off my chest to people who might understand so thank you for listening and keep your fingers crossed this pessimist gets proved wrong!