I think everyone has that little devil on their shoulder, but bottom line as others have said, it's crucial to have OH on board, and my relationship with my OH is the most important thing to me. Our TTC date was pushed back 3 times by OH (for financial, work & vacation reasons primarily) and each time I whined and complained but did the honest thing and waited till we were both ready & the circumstances were right. We were lucky enough to catch on the 1st month ttc. So take heart, it WILL happen, when the time is right.