The mental health support thread!

[EloiseAndBump]

Hiya ladies!
Im Eloise, Im 20 and I have two beautiful children called Amelia and Isaac.
and I have Borderline personality disorder.
Parenting is hard on its own but with BPD for me its extra hard at times and I can get very lonely.
So who are you? How many kids do you have? What interests you? What are your coping mechanisms when your having a bad day?
Introduce yourself below and lets start a discussion so we can be there for eachother and stop atleast one person from not feeling so alone!

 

[confused87com]

I have the three beautiful kids. Michael 4. Jessica 2 and Daniel 2 months. They are my world. I currently suffer from ptsd and pnd. The ptsd is a hang over from my first traumatic pregnancy. I was fine in my second but never dealt with it. Now it's back. Each day is a challenge esp with the three of them

 

[topsy]

Hi girls

I have prolonged PND severe Anxiety and depression with psychosis... Just spent 5 weeks as an in patient at a psychiatrist hospital because of my illnesses.

I am 33 have 1 LO who is a boy who 3 1/2

I have to have carer help me look after my LO I cant go out on my own... other than when I force myself to do the 10 min walk to nursery and back on my own.

I like reading ( when i can concentrate) and listen to music helps distract me from my voices and LOVE BnB.

Thanks for starting this thread.

xxxxx

 

[kerrie24]

My name is Kerrie and I have 3 children- 13,9 & 5. I dont know what is wrong with me! I have always had anxiety over most things and I overthink a lot, especially health. This year I have had a lot on my plate and started having panic attacks and now have ulcer symptoms which I need to have an endoscopy for (which im scared of) and the gp put me on sertraline tablets but I haven't taken them for fear of the side effects. Pleased to meet you all x

 

[topsy]

How everyone doing?

I have had a really bad day and had to call the local crisis team who I am under and take extra meds xxxx

 

[confused87com]

I'm ok today. First day in weeks though. I'm just a crying mess generally. My cpn is insisting I see a psychiatrist. .
.Never have before. I was ill after my first son and the idea of help I was given was laughable. As I've moved I am actually getting helped. Anyhow I think she wants me on medication. .I'm not so sure but assume this is why wants the doc involved. Its not for 2 weeks though. Just got to survive til then I suppose

 

[confused87com]

I'm so sorry to hear you aren't doing so well. It's so tough

 

[kerrie24]

Im ok emotionally at the moment, looking forward to going on holiday on monday. My (presumed) ulcer is giving me a lot of pain though as I am very stressed at the moment. My house has just been sold by the landlord and the house I have been offered has yet to be vacated so we cant see it till we get back off holiday. That leaves us 10 days to find something else if that one is no good. I had a gum shield from the dentist for grinding my teeth but it was making my jaw misalign so I stopped using it but now I keep waking up with bitten cheeks so I must be still grinding. Im hoping the holiday will relax me a bit.

 

[katherinegrey]

Can I join please?

I'm 24, two boys and have bipolar disorder, anxiety disorder and dermotillomania.

I've been off medication for 18 months at my own stubborn hands and now they've insisted I at least go back on an anti depressant despite me telling them that anti depressants without mood stabilisers are really bad for me.

So I've been given sertroline to begin and a review on the 10th to see how it's working. I hate pills. They make me tired and sluggish and fat and in the beginning unstable and after that like a zombie. Unless they induce mania which is quite likely given they won't prescribe the mood stabiliser along side it as they know how much I hate side effects and don't want to scare me into quitting medication again because the mood stabilisers have some pretty intense ones.

My anxiety is actually more concerning right now than my bipolar which is a genuine first for me.

Hope everyone is well, is everyone here medicated?

 

[EloiseAndBump]

Im currently not on any medication. For several reasons, Were TTC#3 and one of the meds I was on causes severe fetal abnormalities and heart defects and I was getting awful side effects from my other medication which was ruining my life! I actually feel so much better being med free.

 

[katherinegrey]

And I do, and now they're insisting I go back on them and I'm scared. I feel so much better without but they feel I could be better still and medication would help. They won't refer me for help for my dermotillimania until I'm medicated so they've got me against a wall as I really need help with that.

 

[topsy]

Aw hun that sounds tough going I am on medication myself and take what they prescribed me apart from when my voices are really bad xxx

 

[topsy]

i am having a bit of a bumpy time right now and feel a bit isolated from people as its hard for them to understand xxxx

 

[katherinegrey]

It can be very lonely. Big hugs hun, hope today is a positive day

 

[confused87com]

Its horrible feeling alone. I've started medication although not noticing much difference. Had to see psychiatrist and now just seen psychologist. Lucky as there's normallya six month wait. But I'm not sure about it. She suggested maybe a change in circumstance is all I need! I think about my son birth all the time. Things trigger memories is like I'm living in the past and reliving it over and over. Then she said some therapy would help buti can't take baby. So the only person I can ask is my mum. She's difficult and I can't imagine letting her baby sit. I'm so torn. They won't give me any support ifi can't find child care. I'm gonna have to tell my mumi need her to baby sit them once a week. I'm gong to have to tell her why! My baby won't even accept a bottle! Oh god I'm so confused as what to do

 

[topsy]

Hi Girls

Hun that must be so hard to even think about your mum babysitting hun. HUGS xxxx

 

[confused87com]

Thanks. I'm even considering whether a nursery would take them instead. I tried to talk to mum today but then found out she had my brother and sister round and never even invited me. I feel so hurt by it. Apparently would have been to much for me to be there too. This has tipped me over the edge. If my own family don't want me what's the bloody point

 

[katherinegrey]

Big hugs. Can you ring the psychology and explain? Say you want and need the help but cannot find childcare, can they suggest anything if they know of any short period childcare or can an exception be made for you to bring them?

I moved seven miles away from my family and they never come to see me because it's too much hassle. Seven miles, and they all drive. My children are my family now.

 

[confused87com]

Yeah I'm only half hour drive from parents but ifi lived round the corner they wouldn't come. I went to the psychologist assessment with my baby and she said she couldn't actually treat me with him present as he isa distraction. So bloody unfair. Feel like I'm gonna feel this way forever as have no sodding childcare.

 

[MamaLoCo]

...just a thread, that's all, for those of us barely hanging on by a thread?
Please make a whole board for this.
I need to know I'm not alone.
I'm so lonely right now and I really want to post on facebook but I don't want to be that pathetic loser making passive aggressive posts about how friendless I am.

I have to go back to work at the end of the month and I was getting so low that I had to seek medication again. It took forever to be seen and wound up at the ER where they did nothing but useless medical tests and a mental health questionnaire and tell me that yes, I need help...but they don't offer it. wtf?!

My closest family member is a 4 hour drive away, my sister. She's busy with a 3 year old and getting divorced but she still helps more than anyone...which isn't much. The core of my family lives at least 10 hours away and the rest live across the country. My husband's family is practically nonexistent. Some of them are coming out of the woodwork to meet the baby and it's extremely uncomfortable for me because we're going out of our way to take our baby to people who are essentially strangers to me.

I don't know how to make friends so I know people on facebook but not in real life. So I see all the fun stuff they do and post online but I'm just sitting here like a lump, uninvited. Most of them are people who claim to be my husband's friends but they never hang out either.

I have two friends. One lives an hour away and comes out when she can for a few hours. The other has 4 kids and I never see her but she was there when my baby was born. We say we'll make plans but rarely follow through. Then there's the main friend- my husband. But I just can't even connect with him right now because he works all day and I never get a break from the baby because he's tired when he gets home. He thinks he's helping but since he hasn't walked in my shoes, he doesn't realize how close I am to completely snapping, not even an ER trip for my mental state opened his eyes.

On top of that, my dog died. She was my very best friend. I have another dog, and two cats...and a baby. But that dog...she was my baby. She was my rock, as pathetic as that may seem.

I'm so alone