The most pathetic pregnant woman in the history of pregnant women!

[lovetaralyn]

So lately I have been absolutely pathetic. My hormones are absolutely out of control and I have no idea what to do with myself. My OH and I have been on vacation with his family for the past week and so far I have managed to get myself into a twit every night. Last night I actually cried because he went ahead and got in the pool without me (there is a pool in the backyard of the beach house we're staying at.) I have also never been a really needy/jealous/self conscious person at all, now I get jealous if he mentions another girl in any form of conversation. I really think this would be easier if I atleast felt pretty. And I have tried EVERYTHING! Doing my hair, wearing makeup, new clothes, new underwear. NOTHING WORKS! I feel fat and hideous which makes me feel bad because sometimes I think "well, this wouldn't be the case if I were pregnant" So then I feel completely guilty for blaming our daughter. I am just in constant lose lose situations and I hate it

 

[aob1013]

I can ditto pretty much everything you have said. Pregnancy is not my thing, i dislike it enormously. Don't get me wrong, feeling Leni move and all that jazz is wonderful, but my body isn't mine anymore and neither is my mind - i've had enough, and i can't wait for this to be over.

It's so completely normal to feel like this hun, i know how you are feeling. I cried my eyes out this morning as i started spreading the marmalade on my toast .. it's just another part of pregnancy, it's horrible but it won't last for much longer, promise!


xxx

 

[lovetaralyn]

Ah thank you! That made me feel so much better. You said that perfectly too! lol That's exactly how I feel and I don't have any friends who are pregnant so it's not like they understand and I don't see them much anyways I'm mostly just with OH and he definitely doesn't understand that I feel like my body isn't mine anymore. And I do love feeling her move and I probably wouldn't feel this way as much if I had more ultrasounds so I could atleast keep putting a growing baby to these movements. But, now that i'm getting further along it's like more and more things hurt and the less and less I can do :/

 

[Adrienne]

I'm the same way. Don't worry, you're totally normal. I cried yesterday when I was tracking a package on the UPS website, and it said that my package was going to arrive a day later than they originally said. I'm pretty much a wreck, too.

 

[pjs6666]

aw hun im the same sometimes, dont worry. i feel fat and unattractive...got my nails and hair done the other day and it didnt make much difference either...i cry if i burn my toast, if i drop my phone i feel like a fat useless idiot ...and constantly have bad thoughts bout my fiance running away with another girl even though he only ever goes to work or is at home , i go out more then he does!! hormones are horrible things, just try think of all the good thats to come and how much your gonna love being a mummy soon, it doesnt make it go away but it helps to stay postive xx

 

[lovetaralyn]

aw hun im the same sometimes, dont worry. i feel fat and unattractive...got my nails and hair done the other day and it didnt make much difference either...i cry if i burn my toast, if i drop my phone i feel like a fat useless idiot ...and constantly have bad thoughts bout my fiance running away with another girl even though he only ever goes to work or is at home , i go out more then he does!! hormones are horrible things, just try think of all the good thats to come and how much your gonna love being a mummy soon, it doesnt make it go away but it helps to stay postive xx

I wanted to get my nails and hair done so bad! (Half of the reason is whenever I get depressed I cut my hair but thankfully I didn't do it because I always hate having short hair after I do it ) But, after seeing how much $60 dollars would get the baby I didn't even get my nails done. I spent all $800 something of my graduation money on baby necessities, but it did feel good to buy things for myself. I know exactly how you feel about the phone, I seriously dread turning over in the middle of the night because my pelvis hurts me so bad

 

[moomin_troll]

i cried because my pizza had peppers on it when i was pregnant.

u might feel awful now and hate being pregnant but ur lucky (even tho i no u dont feel it when babies foot is in ur ribs and u cant sleep) and it is all worth it.

 

[lovetaralyn]

I keep trying to keep that in mind. It's just so hard sometimes when September seems so far away lol

 

[moomin_troll]

I keep trying to keep that in mind. It's just so hard sometimes when September seems so far away lol

zanes 2 in september and it only seems like yesterday when i was pregnant waiting for him to get the hell out lol time goes so fast once they are here.

have u tried yoga or something like that, might make u feel abit better doing some exercise. altho for me eating junk food helped hahaha

there will be times once babies here u wish she/he was back in so u cud wee by urself lol

 

[lovetaralyn]

I keep trying to keep that in mind. It's just so hard sometimes when September seems so far away lol

zanes 2 in september and it only seems like yesterday when i was pregnant waiting for him to get the hell out lol time goes so fast once they are here.

have u tried yoga or something like that, might make u feel abit better doing some exercise. altho for me eating junk food helped hahaha

there will be times once babies here u wish she/he was back in so u cud wee by urself lol

Well, I've been swimming in the pool alot, my pelvis and hips have been killing me so I don't care what these doctors tell me because i've tried basic poses and such, getting on the floor or balancing in anyway just makes me feel like i'm splitting in two but the swimming has helped! and junk food makes me feel a lot better too I know i'll regret my love for it once she's here and I still have a huge belly haha


That's why I don't feel comfortable complaining a lot, I know there will be times I will want her back in

 

[moomin_troll]

have u got sciatica or even spd? as that might explain why your hips are hurting so much.
i was told i had sciatica all thru my pregnacy with no help, until afew months ago i was sent to a physio as im still in pain and i found out my hips were uneven due to pregnancy and a bone was leaning on the sciatic nerve and was causing me all the pain. im not in physio.
have a chat to ur doctor about that.
i was always in the bath when i was pregnant as it helped so much.

i eat like a pig when i was pregnant, chocolate gatues for breakfast lol n after i had zane i lost 14lbs straight away and i had only actualy gained 6lbs

 

[lovetaralyn]

From what I have read it really sounds like I have spd and I asked my doctor about it, well actually the nurse practitioner (I hate my doctor's office and I always get stuck with the stupid nurse practitioner who is constantly rude to me) and she said to me "well it's probably just your pelvis relaxing" and to wear a pregnancy support belt. But the only one I could find fits me weird and makes me look like I have the weirdest shape in the world because of my stupid lovehandles! haha But when I was in the hospital getting checked out a few weeks ago they asked if it was bad enough to be on medication for, which it is but i'm just too stubborn and turned it down because I really don't like taking anything that I don't absolutely need to have, since I was originally considered high risk because of medications I was on prior to finding out I was pregnant. I just hope it gets better after I have her.

 

[moomin_troll]

havent they offered u any physio at all? really gets to me when doctors and nurses just try to brush you off.
alot of people i no who have had spd still suffer after having baby but can get better with exercise.
do u sleep witha pillow inbetween ur knees? it really helped me when my hips were bad

 

[newmommy23]

I cried watching an allergy commercial with a baby in it.

 

[lovetaralyn]

havent they offered u any physio at all? really gets to me when doctors and nurses just try to brush you off.
alot of people i no who have had spd still suffer after having baby but can get better with exercise.
do u sleep witha pillow inbetween ur knees? it really helped me when my hips were bad

Yeah thats basically all this nurse practitioner does, brush me off. I do sleep with the pillow between my legs but it makes my legs stiff or something because in the morning my hips pop and it hurts so awful.

And today everything got so much better...NOT! After OH was extreamly rude and hurtful yesterday and basically said he needs way more time to himself (because it's not like I need him right now or anything ) I checked my facebook on my phone and it said I had a relationship request well stupid me I thought it was just to change us from "Married" to "In a relationship" (I made it married as a joke) well no, my mom calls and goes "Uh you're in an open relationship now?" I was like uh not that I know of? Well turns out that's what he changed it to. So I changed it to single because there is no way I'm going to stay with someone who can't even be committed just to me. It is just so ridiculous though because we've been through all of this before because it only happens when he parties because drinking and smoking marijuana messes with his moods because he's bipolar. And i'm positive that's what he's doing now. Then on top of that someone had the nerve to comment on the changed relationship status (someone I used to go to school with, not even a close friend) and say "Well what about the child?" I was like "Well what about her?" and they actually said "You're not going to try and work it out for her?" Because I'm obviously that much of a piece of shit person. She is the ONLY reason I have stuck through all of this bullshit because I grew up without a steady father figure and I absolutely do not want that for my daughter. I just feel so stupid right now and really have no one to talk to about it. I just feel like i'm going insane :/

 

[pansylove]

i'm so glad you posted this, i feel exactly the same! i feel so guilty because sometimes i get so fed up and i'm like ugh i don't want to do this anymore and i just want the baby gone
and i feel so disgusting, someone said 'my body isn't mine' and i feel completely the same. it's not me anymore, i don't feel like myself inside and out. i'm so unhappy! and i'm only 19 weeks! i hope this gets better, because i'm getting so depressed. none of my clothes fit, i'm so emotional. argh.

 

[moomin_troll]

havent they offered u any physio at all? really gets to me when doctors and nurses just try to brush you off.
alot of people i no who have had spd still suffer after having baby but can get better with exercise.
do u sleep witha pillow inbetween ur knees? it really helped me when my hips were bad

Yeah thats basically all this nurse practitioner does, brush me off. I do sleep with the pillow between my legs but it makes my legs stiff or something because in the morning my hips pop and it hurts so awful.

And today everything got so much better...NOT! After OH was extreamly rude and hurtful yesterday and basically said he needs way more time to himself (because it's not like I need him right now or anything ) I checked my facebook on my phone and it said I had a relationship request well stupid me I thought it was just to change us from "Married" to "In a relationship" (I made it married as a joke) well no, my mom calls and goes "Uh you're in an open relationship now?" I was like uh not that I know of? Well turns out that's what he changed it to. So I changed it to single because there is no way I'm going to stay with someone who can't even be committed just to me. It is just so ridiculous though because we've been through all of this before because it only happens when he parties because drinking and smoking marijuana messes with his moods because he's bipolar. And i'm positive that's what he's doing now. Then on top of that someone had the nerve to comment on the changed relationship status (someone I used to go to school with, not even a close friend) and say "Well what about the child?" I was like "Well what about her?" and they actually said "You're not going to try and work it out for her?" Because I'm obviously that much of a piece of shit person. She is the ONLY reason I have stuck through all of this bullshit because I grew up without a steady father figure and I absolutely do not want that for my daughter. I just feel so stupid right now and really have no one to talk to about it. I just feel like i'm going insane :/

omg! id of seriously kicked the hell out of him for one saying he needed time and then changing ur relationship to that. how fucking dare u.
u dont need that in ur life and certainly u dont need to try for the baby, she will be perfectly fine with a great mummy in her life. not a shit dad and a mum whos sad all the time.
have u spoken to him about why he did that?
im on here most of the day if u need someone to rant to, i no how just shouting about stuff can make u feel so much better.

 

[moomin_troll]

i'm so glad you posted this, i feel exactly the same! i feel so guilty because sometimes i get so fed up and i'm like ugh i don't want to do this anymore and i just want the baby gone
and i feel so disgusting, someone said 'my body isn't mine' and i feel completely the same. it's not me anymore, i don't feel like myself inside and out. i'm so unhappy! and i'm only 19 weeks! i hope this gets better, because i'm getting so depressed. none of my clothes fit, i'm so emotional. argh.

unfortunatly ur hormoans and body go alot more crazy the longer on u get, but u just have to find things to make urself feel good x

 

[lovetaralyn]

havent they offered u any physio at all? really gets to me when doctors and nurses just try to brush you off.
alot of people i no who have had spd still suffer after having baby but can get better with exercise.
do u sleep witha pillow inbetween ur knees? it really helped me when my hips were bad

Yeah thats basically all this nurse practitioner does, brush me off. I do sleep with the pillow between my legs but it makes my legs stiff or something because in the morning my hips pop and it hurts so awful.

And today everything got so much better...NOT! After OH was extreamly rude and hurtful yesterday and basically said he needs way more time to himself (because it's not like I need him right now or anything ) I checked my facebook on my phone and it said I had a relationship request well stupid me I thought it was just to change us from "Married" to "In a relationship" (I made it married as a joke) well no, my mom calls and goes "Uh you're in an open relationship now?" I was like uh not that I know of? Well turns out that's what he changed it to. So I changed it to single because there is no way I'm going to stay with someone who can't even be committed just to me. It is just so ridiculous though because we've been through all of this before because it only happens when he parties because drinking and smoking marijuana messes with his moods because he's bipolar. And i'm positive that's what he's doing now. Then on top of that someone had the nerve to comment on the changed relationship status (someone I used to go to school with, not even a close friend) and say "Well what about the child?" I was like "Well what about her?" and they actually said "You're not going to try and work it out for her?" Because I'm obviously that much of a piece of shit person. She is the ONLY reason I have stuck through all of this bullshit because I grew up without a steady father figure and I absolutely do not want that for my daughter. I just feel so stupid right now and really have no one to talk to about it. I just feel like i'm going insane :/

omg! id of seriously kicked the hell out of him for one saying he needed time and then changing ur relationship to that. how fucking dare u.
u dont need that in ur life and certainly u dont need to try for the baby, she will be perfectly fine with a great mummy in her life. not a shit dad and a mum whos sad all the time.
have u spoken to him about why he did that?
im on here most of the day if u need someone to rant to, i no how just shouting about stuff can make u feel so much better.

Well, That's the most ridiculous part, I haven't spoken to him in 2 days. And honestly, I really don't want to talk to him right now. I am extremely miserable though just because he's so mean with such little words the last things he said to me were all about me leaving him alone. The relationship thing was a complete shock to me. So, what the hell is the point in staying with someone who doesn't even want to be with just you? And my only thing is I don't want to keep her from him at all, my mom did that with me when I was born and nothing really came good out of it. I would seriously be happy if he would just be in her life because I really think he will be, I just don't think he wants to be with me? If that makes sense?
If you have facebook you should add me so we can talk if ya want? I'm a great ranter
www.facebook.com/warrentaralyn

 

[lovetaralyn]

i'm so glad you posted this, i feel exactly the same! i feel so guilty because sometimes i get so fed up and i'm like ugh i don't want to do this anymore and i just want the baby gone
and i feel so disgusting, someone said 'my body isn't mine' and i feel completely the same. it's not me anymore, i don't feel like myself inside and out. i'm so unhappy! and i'm only 19 weeks! i hope this gets better, because i'm getting so depressed. none of my clothes fit, i'm so emotional. argh.

I absolutely hate it and now that i'm fighting with OH it's even worse because I'm always like "well this wouldn't happen if I were still cute" or even I could go to the gym for a little bit,
BLAAAAAH I CAN'T WAIT FOR SEPTEMBER!
I hope things cheer up for you!