hi girls
ive been violated

bit of a long update il try to keep it short...
got to consultant- 90 min delay

went in and saw a mw who i thought seemed nice but she really rubbed me up the wrong way very quickly, i dont know if it was becasue i was hot and bothered waiting for so long but she just annoyed me. every concern i had she basically said well thats being pregnant. i said LO has slowed movement and although i still feel him it is less so she said well you obviously werent too bothered if you didnt go to l and d!!!!! i got all emotional but did hold back the tears and refrained from punching her

so anyway... after basically saying im a drama queen and get a grip she went to get the dr.
different consultant today as mine wasnt in clinic. she came in and offered a membrane sweep, decided i may as well do it. as soon as she got me on the couch she gasped at how bad my legs and ankles are (i have been saying this...) and said they are a bit too severe for just regular swelling. i raised my concerns with her about how bad htey are getting and she was quite understanding.
ANYWAY (i did warn you) i thought- yeah a sweep cant be too bad-i deff want an epidural and any other pain med they can give LOL! I was 1 cm and soft but still posterior

she said its not fantastic but its favourable and better than being closed. Not sure what i was meant to expect but it sure as heck wasnt that

i got period cramps as soon as she was doing it and then bad contractions every 5 mins for around 2 hours. i bled a little but soon turned to brown and not seen any plug or anything. contractions ahve stopped now but i have felt rotten ever since. i get intermittent back ache and just htis general weird feelign in tummy- not contractions more like pain / discomfort

no idea if this is a good sign or not so im jsut ignoring it all.
FINALLY she has booked my induction....for monday

!!!! she doesnt want to wait much longer. Not really sure how i feel, im excited but nervous and really frightened etc but im jsut taking it one day at a time. DH has booked monday off and will see how we get on as i know it can take a few days?
we werent going to tell familly but i told them anywya as hospital rules state only one guest during inductions so i jsut told them that it extends to labour too
sorry its all a bit long and weird, its been a funny day and my head is somewhere not quite on my shoulders! apparantly LO head is 'fixed' but not super low as of yet.
im not googling inductions or sweeps or anything

DH is adament he will be here sat MIL says sunday and will give us £50 if she is right

i say wednesday xxx