Nolly
35+ TTC#1???
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As some of you may know my DH dropped a bombshell a few weeks ago and told me he doesn't want children. This has been an ongoing thing with him and I know in my heart it is FEAR that is stopping him. He had a bad childhood and is also a recovering alcoholic. He has control issues and is finding it hard to cope with his life at times. I have tried to talk to him many times about this but he says he is fine and that I am trying to blame him for everything.
So anyway to try to sort things out once and for all he agreed to go to marriage counselling. I just wanted him to see that he is being totally unreasonable, not about not wanting children but that he cant expect me to just accept it and stay with him anyway.
So we went on Monday night. The counsellor was very nice and very easy to talk to. She said the first time was more of an assessment session than an actual counselling session. Anyway to cut a very long story short she read him like a book. She saw that he is crippled with fear and his anxiety levels are through the roof.
So she asked him if he wanted to stay wrapped in fear or if he wanted to break free from it. She recommended that he go to our GP and get GP to refer him to this specialist centre (that is actually in our town) and they will help him cope with stress and anxiety. Let me just say his stress and anxiety is not based on reality but on fears that such and such might happen. For example he stresses all day on Sunday that my mother will ring and "ruin" our day together. In 4 years of marriage I'd say she has rang here on Sunday about twice.
The thing is it has really started to affect me. I am feeling constantly under pressure myself because of his behaviour.
So back to Monday night she told him to go home and think about it. So I asked him in the car on the way home what he thought of it all and he said he needed to think about it. I said fair enough.
So fast forward to last night (tues). He wanted me to type up something for him and I said I'd think about it....lol. He asked me when would I know and I said I had a lot on my mind and I wasn't sure. Again to cut a loooong story short I asked him if he had thought about what he needed to think about and it turns out he is afraid to go to the doctor. So I asked him if he wanted me to go with him and explain about counsellor and what she said. I asked him why he didnt just ask me to go with him or explain to me that he was afraid and he said he was afraid to tell me!!!!
So the outcome is he is going to go to GP!!!! I am actually a bit hopeful that we might get a bit of progress.
So TTC is off the cards at the moment which I dont mind too much as long as he is doing something progressive.
Sorry about the long rant but it is a weight off my mind just typing it here.
So anyway to try to sort things out once and for all he agreed to go to marriage counselling. I just wanted him to see that he is being totally unreasonable, not about not wanting children but that he cant expect me to just accept it and stay with him anyway.
So we went on Monday night. The counsellor was very nice and very easy to talk to. She said the first time was more of an assessment session than an actual counselling session. Anyway to cut a very long story short she read him like a book. She saw that he is crippled with fear and his anxiety levels are through the roof.
So she asked him if he wanted to stay wrapped in fear or if he wanted to break free from it. She recommended that he go to our GP and get GP to refer him to this specialist centre (that is actually in our town) and they will help him cope with stress and anxiety. Let me just say his stress and anxiety is not based on reality but on fears that such and such might happen. For example he stresses all day on Sunday that my mother will ring and "ruin" our day together. In 4 years of marriage I'd say she has rang here on Sunday about twice.
The thing is it has really started to affect me. I am feeling constantly under pressure myself because of his behaviour.
So back to Monday night she told him to go home and think about it. So I asked him in the car on the way home what he thought of it all and he said he needed to think about it. I said fair enough.
So fast forward to last night (tues). He wanted me to type up something for him and I said I'd think about it....lol. He asked me when would I know and I said I had a lot on my mind and I wasn't sure. Again to cut a loooong story short I asked him if he had thought about what he needed to think about and it turns out he is afraid to go to the doctor. So I asked him if he wanted me to go with him and explain about counsellor and what she said. I asked him why he didnt just ask me to go with him or explain to me that he was afraid and he said he was afraid to tell me!!!!
So the outcome is he is going to go to GP!!!! I am actually a bit hopeful that we might get a bit of progress.
So TTC is off the cards at the moment which I dont mind too much as long as he is doing something progressive.
Sorry about the long rant but it is a weight off my mind just typing it here.