Think it's another mmc

[elli]

Hey everyone,

I'm 7w 4d today and after a couple of weeks of feeling constantly exhausted and nauseous with sore boobs, I'm now suddenly feeling much better, boobs not really sore, got my appetite back etc, and am starting to think it's going to be another mmc.

Also, yesterday morning and again this morning I could feel my pulse beating really strongly in my stomach and lower back. I don't know what this is but had it in both my previous pregnancies and both ended in mc, so I'm taking it to be a bad sign.

I'm booked in for a scan on monday morning so I guess we'll know soon enough, but right now I really don't feel pregnant any more and it's making me so sad.

I think what's worst is the feeling that I'm letting dh down. He was so excited when we saw a heartbeat at 5w6d, and I can't bear the thought of him being there on monday when they tell us it's all over.

Plus with me feeling so unwell recently people at work guessed I was pregnant, and I found out on thursday have been gossiping about it like crazy behind my back so I'll have to deal with telling them I've mc'd. Last time I only needed to tell my boss, which was bad enough.

Sorry to moan, just needed somewhere to vent a bit.
Hope everyone else is having a good weekend

 

[LunaBean]

I really hope it isn't a mmc hun, try and not panic until you see the baby on Monday! I get that pulsing feeling too, mostly when Im lying down! Sometimes you just get good and bad days, I felt fine yesterday, and have felt so crappy all day today! Fingers crossed everythig is fine!

 

[wubba]

I've had that pulse feeling in all my pregnancies too, and I've never lost a pregnancy yet... Good luck!

 

[KitKatBit]

Hi elli

Hang in there - it could be absolutely fine. I had 2 days with no symptoms and then they came back with a vengeance. Plus the pulse thing is probably because of the increased blood flow during preg, so really that IS a symptom.

It's good you have the scan on Monday. I really hope it's good news for you Let us know xx

 

[hb1]

Good luck at your scan on Monday Elli - hoping you get good news. After your previous mmc there's no wonder that you are worried.
take care

hx

 

[ginasgemz]

(((Hug))) Pregnancy symptoms do tend to fluctuate on and off, you will have periods when you feel much better, then it will hit twice as bad, lol! Also the pulsating feeling in your lower abdomen, well I've been having it both with my succesful and unsuccesful pregnancies, I agree, it's just the increased blood flow in the area, which you probably have whether it's succesful or unsuccesful, so that doesn't necesserily mean anything bad!! Can't wait to see your update on monday. Hang in here, praying for ya!!!!

 

[Tulip]

Sorry you're feeling so scared Elli, but please try not to panic . The pulsing thing is definitely normal, so don't worry about that.

It's also normal to lose/change symptoms for a few days, but having previously suffered an MMC of course you will worry. Not long til your scan, hope to see you back here with tears of joy and a blurry beany pic xx

 

[summer rain]

Hi

ditto to all the above; pregnancy symptoms come and go and many women who have mmc say the big shock is their symptoms didn't decrease at all; this is what happened to me; however I just got a feeling things would go wrong. The pulse thing is normal and is a good sign that the blood flow is good. I hope all goes well on Monday xx

 

[Smiler13]

hi elli, try to hang on until the scan, it is the only way to find out, after losses I felt exactly the same before each early scan, thought that was going to be bad news, but this time they turned out OK. I had no symptoms at all this time until about 10 weeks!

 

[Smiler79]

hi Elli how did you get on at your scan?

 

[justforsakeit]

I've had days where I was convinced I was having a MMC due to sudden loss of symptoms (most notably boob soreness & nausea), however it was only a matter of a few days and the nausea came back with full force.. I still didn't get the boob soreness back but I'm not going to complain! Apparently it's normal for symptoms to come and go..

 

[elli]

Hi guys,

Thanks so much for all your support. Sorry for the slow response.

Just to update you on what happened, I had a scan at 8wks and all was fine, which of course was a huge relief, particularly because the midwife told us the chances of mc are quite small if they find a heartbeat at 8wks.

Unfortunately the relief didn't last long because I started bleeding that night. It had stopped again by the morning, but I had another bleed a few days later so the EPU agreed to scan me again.

So, had another scan at 9wks. Baby looked fine but they found I have a sub chorionic haematoma. The midwife told me it was nothing to worry about and would have no impact on the outcome of the pregnancy. She just said it was a pool of blood under the placenta that would mostly get absorbed but would sometimes overflow so I would probably keep on bleeding from time to time from

I really wish I'd just taken her word for it that it didn't carry any extra risk, but of course I had to google. and from what I've read it seems that a sch can significantly increase chances of mc

Honestly not sure how much more stress I can take
DH says we should just stop worrying and try to stay positive, but that's just not how my mind works.

Anyway, thanks again for all the supportive comments. It really does help. Hope everyone else is doing ok.

 

[Tulip]

Oh sweetie I know how tempting Dr Google can be But the size of the sch can vary wildly and even the larger ones haven't resulted in mc, as long as you take it easy. Please try not to worry yourself, baby needs your PMA. Lots of love xx

 

[blondee]

Hello Elli,

At my 6 week scan they found what they called 'a collection of blood' and said that it could be absorbed by the body or come away. If it came away they said that at such an early stage there is a SLIGHT risk of damage to the LO. I had a tiny bleed a week after they told me all this and i was sure it was over, but it wasn't. I got an emergency scan and they confirmed bubs was fine and that the blood had gone. The relief was immense.

My OB/GYN (who has been VERY understanding and supportive about my MMC history) said at the time that the blood was nothing to worry about and that the sonographer was just being overcautious. Apparently it is very, very common.

Please try not to stress. My Doc just said to take it easy for a few weeks and to avoid lifting anything heavy or doing sports except swimming. So, put your feet up and get OH to make you something nice for dinner

 

[elli]

Thanks for the words of encouragement. Have been trying really hard not to stress, but just started bleeding bright red again and am finding it very hard to stay positive right now. The midwife did say I may bleed some more, but she said it would be dark blood, not red.

I've been taking it easy all day, in fact I've been asleep all afternoon, so it can't be due to exertion.

DH is going to be away for most of the next two weeks and I'm dreading having to give him bad news over the phone.

 

[blondee]

Elli - i'm sorry, that sounds very upsetting. Can you go to the EPU? Call DH - he will want to support you. Can he delay his trip?

I'm still crossing my fingers and toes for you, hun.

Look after yourself and keep us posted.

XX

 

[elli]

Bleeding seems to have stopped but I was cramping pretty badly from around 7pm last night until around 6pm this morning, and still getting some cramps now off and on.

Gonna try to speak to a midwife this morning and get another scan arranged, but was told by my GP yesterday when i went to arrange a booking appointment that they probably wouldn't even bother with a 12 wk scan since I've already had some early scans, so not sure I'll get anywhere with that. When I asked him about the sch he just shrugged and said I'd have to learn to live with the fact that life is full of uncertainty. To be honest I thought that was pretty patronising. I was just asking for a bit of information, not a definitive answer on how things will work out. Of course I know they can't predict the future....

Ok rant over

 

[Beanbabe]

Im sorry you are going through this. Lots of and good wishes for you

 

[Tulip]

Your doctor sounds like an arse

If you're bleeding and cramping EPU will scan you again my love. Hope it all works out xx

 

[Neko]

Be annoying until somebody gives you another scan. If you're bleeding and cramping, you need one.

Hope you get good news.