this is so hard

[yeahuloveme]

ah babymojo, i am so to hear that yesterday was your due date, i hope it was not to hard, I know it will get easier, it took 2 aniversarys of my daughters death to be able to cope, the first i drank my self Stupid and was drunk for about 3 days, the second i cried and cried, and got sedated by my doctor, and this one the third, i made angel cakes, and i released ballons with a rose attached and you know what, i smiled, and i laughed and of course i had a few tears but i was happy in a strange way, because i finnally felt in my heart that she was safe, and happy, and i felt like she thought i had cried enough for her and she knew how much i loved her. the other ones, have been hard, but not as hard as they were so early, this one has been hard, but i am coming to terms with the fact that I am not ready to be a mommy yet, even though I want to be. I start my tests in 3 months, and hopefully I will get the answers, so that maybe even next year depending how my relationship is going( yes I have a new man, who is lovely, and much more than nemo's dad, and he has been SO supportive over every thing we have been friends for years) then maybe I can think about having another baby, so who knows MAYBE 2 years time you will see me back here, happy and if I have a baby, im going to put all my photos up!
thank you to every one you have been so kind and understanding, and i wish i could be more supportive to other people atm.

 

[Omi]

Hi hun,

just wanted to say my heart goes out to you. I wasnt far behind you (preggie wise) and now i too am losing the baby. This is my second mc, both this year. Im fed up, angry and feel quite dejected..like it will never happen for me. Im also getting up there in age (im 38 ) so i have less hope than most.

Take care hun..it will get better with time, but its never ever easy- i know!

Hugs, Omi xxx

 

[Barneyboo]

 

[SJK]

Im so sorry xx

 

[Rumpskin]

Reading your story makes me so desperately sad. After enduring two miscarriages, I am frightened to get pregnant again. The pain is too much.

I pray that you become strong again and indeed get to hold your precious baby. xx